Mocha-Latte

Relocated..

2007-07-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

Previously, i revamped our blog to anticipate his blog entries.

For now, i've relocated to http://an-ugly-duckling.blogspot.com/ :)

Nevertheless, this Mocha-Latte blog will not be deleted. It records the details of our live together as one entity..

One day.. if this love has another chance.. this blog will be "re-borned" :)

tong hua

2007-07-12T07:29:00.001+08:00

its been a long time since the radio played this song. coincidentally... they played it this morning 7am. hearing the song.. simply brought back memories... with lots of tears.

this song was part of our r/s.

He was looking for this song.

I was also looking for this song.

This started off our msn conversation.. and kicked start this r/s..

He concluded that "tong hua brought us tgt.."

*Enjoy this song.. for it is the song of our love life......................... (i cant help but cry..it hurts)

Torn.......

2007-07-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

i cant get to sleep. i kp reading my prev post and tears un. my heart is tearing. i can only pour my thoughts here.. thanks for all the concern..

I would def be lying to say that im okie.. deep down, i feel, torn apart. (pls dun ask me how i am.. i tink i'll jus breakdown and cry..)

"whats yours is yours.." --> is this true? i dun wish to believe in this. love is selfish. if i dun fight for it.. i'll lose everything, which i jus did.

"there's no turning back.." --> why.. why..why.. if the love has not fade away..?

2 parties, love each other, no 3rd party involved, but surrender to circumstances..

tmr.. i'll go to work with swollen panda eyes. (who cares bout how i look now.. for i've lost someone close to my heart).

it doesnt matter bout how my grades are, how much $$ i earn.. cos grades & $$ can nv buy happiness... the love, was priceless.

why did fate do this to us................

he's coldness is really affecting me. for someone i love so deeply... suddenly talk to u in a hostile cold manner... it hurts....................

i hate how i feel right now. i cant sms him. i cant msn him. i cant email him. this is the only place where i can pour out my feelings.. and if heaven feels our love, he'll be able to read my msg to him..

(pls dun cry dear.. my heart feels the pain.. you're not to blame for this outcome..)

*i cannot bear to ... wish you happinesss in future... for i hope this happiness is shared between you and me...

[tears in heaven] who will understand how i feel now............. ............ *cries* Qi Shi Hai Ai Ni...

A Letter from Me to You..

2007-07-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

We met. it was a good heart to heart talk. i wish we had talked things out properly earlier. things might not have end up this way..

fate played a trick on us.

He had made up his mind, to put this r/s to an end. When his mind is made up.. nothin will change. It hurts in my heart.. but.. helpless i was, i could not do anything. I had a part to play.. for this unsuccessful r/s. The love is there.. but perhaps, we didnt communicate properly, leading to many mis communications.. mis understandings.. assumptions..

It made me learn a lesson. the number of times i got angry with him.. the number of times i assume unnecessary things.. the number of times i said things which i did not mean.. this was the price i had to pay. Its a painful price.. for there's no more chances given to us..

i felt the need to sms-ed his mum last nite. (it wouldnt be right for me to jus MIA lidat?) After all.. she really took great care of me, treating me as good as a daughter-in-law. I let her down..

"Dear aunty & uncle, thank you for loving and taking care of me this 2 yrs. You have been really understanding and i really appreciate it. I will definitely miss both of u, (ah ma, sa yi, shui gu & 2nd aunt), our sundays lunch together, the weekly chicken soup cooked with lots of love, and will always miss wilson. take good care."

I will definitely miss all of them.. thank you for treating me like part of your family :)

I looked back at our entries.. with tears, for i can only blame myself for such outcome. A fairytale which started off so pure and blissful.. had to have an ending.

Dear,

Thank you for coming down to meet me today. I really appreciate the effort. I had a good talk with you. I wish we had communicate more earlier.

My heart really teared, to know your decision. It was a good 2.5yrs of memories.. good memories. Life is not a bed of roses.. there's ups and downs. We promised to go thru thick n thin with each other.. but, circumstances tore us apart.

I think bout the day we got together on 1st Mar 05, 2330. & till this day.. i hav not regretted saying "yes" to you. It was not an anyhow-choice. It was a choice of mutual feeling we had for each other. Tat particularly nite.. you happily told ya mum "ma i got gf le!". next moment, u asked me "so when are u going to meet the gohs n teos?". It was a nice feeling.. stil vivid in my mind. It seems like it jus happened yesterday..

We skipped class and drove to West Coast Park jus to have breakfast together. You wanted to get me sweets, but did not know what flavour i like, and so ended up getting all the 5 flavours.. and get laughed by at our friends. i bought you food, and you got teased by our friends, "why he have, i dun have?"

We nicknamed ourselves "bobo & chacha" and then to "mocha & latte".. it was a symbol, of us.

We travelled far.. but a pity, our love did not withstand time.

I tried to hold back my tears in the car, but i could not. I'm sorry.

There's many things i will miss of u. Old chang kee, sakae sushi, kinokuniya, botak jones, durian puff, katong laksa, hongkong cafe, Saturday's nite anime, Sunday's chicken rice, bah chor mee, prata, mango pomelo, making sandwiches for u, Saturday's nite with ya frens, watchin soccer, chilling out, playing polka, eating supper and growing fat, our yearly bbq during xmas, your outfield training, your overseas training, sending & welcoming u back home, finding the cheapest parking space.... the list never ends.

You never failed to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling down, but i did not treasure it. I had many negative thoughts within me that cause all the unhappiness in us. If there's one thing i regret.. it would be saying things that i did not mean to u. Regrets will always remain as regrets..

You made yourself and your parents proud, by first entering into OCS & then graduating it. It was something u deserve. It was a tough journey.. but your hard work paid off. Believe in yourself, you'll definitely do well. I know you'll study hard and do ya parents proud. It will put more than a smile on their face :) You know, i really miss fetching u from the airport.. It makes me feel that u have done sth proud for the nation :)

I thought we would be able to go thru this next stage of life together..

It is going to be tough, to handle this. I look at our photos.. from the start of our journey.. till now. Fort Canning Park, Mount Faber, Cosy Bay, Esplanade, Botanic Garden, Hong Kong, Commissioning Parade, Commissioning Ball, Cruise, Cote Dazur, East Coast Park, Disney on Ice, Prom Night, Sentosa, Little Bali, Rochester Park, Sky Garden, Waffletown.........

There will not be anyone who will pose funny pictures with me, stick out the tongue with me, laugh with me.. tell me cold jokes.. make funny faces to cheer me up...

I hope you'll miss the times we had together, cos i'll definitely miss it. After all... you were someone dear to me. Saturday nites, i'll miss watchin the anime with u.. drinkin my lemon barley & u drinking dairy milk. You never fail to kiss me goodnite even if i doze off earlier than u.. Sunday morning, i'll miss your cute bubbly eyes looking at me saying "morning baby!! hungry??". Our usual chicken/ duck rice for lunch with ya parents & a gd talk wif dem :) and then washing the orange baby tgt..

& of cuz.. my big bolster.. the cute moo moo, the winnie the pooh plush toy, and not forgetting, your smelly smelly ah bu =p Mum bought a bigger bed for us, but i disappoint her.. im sorry.

My heart hurts, to see u cry. I feel helpless, for i can no longer do anything to change your decision. It pains me, cos u told me u still love me. & that u bothered bout me, thats why u came down to see me. This journey together.. made me felt the meaning of true love. Thank you, dear.
I have seen you strong & weak, in & out. Dun let circumstances fail you down alrite? Moments when you are down and/ or feeling stressful, dun despair cos i'll always be watching over u :) Keep that ring that has us engraved, for it will remind you that "Jac loves Wil". This will always stand true. I hope it will make u happier, for I will do the same too. :)

You were someone whom i could confide about anythg. You were more than a bf.. you were as good as my soul mate. We could read each other's mind but always claim that we dun hav telepathy ;) If you could read my mind now, you'll know that my heart still beats for u.

You don't have to feel guilty, for i had a part to play in this too. Dun have to write a letter to my dad okie? We will get his understanding.. :)

Many things on my mind. Many things i wan to say..

i re-read your blog from Nutang previously. This poem will be an exclusive one:

*Sing to the rythem "ah mei ah mei ji shi bai jia zhuang, wo ji de kuai fa kuang.......I dunno the title of the song but it has a cute rythem..

[Oh Baby baby u let me in ur life

I feel like it is to nice

Oh Making me feel like a clown beside

Beside the angel in my eyes

Oh Hong Kong Hong Kong is a test of hearts

A test for both of us T

empers flies in the rainy sky

I'd never say gd bye

Oh Baby Baby what can i say?

Thank u for a great 4 days.. ]

It was a hard goodbye jus now. Its probably the last time i wld get to see u.. I dunno if u wld still wan to see me..

The hug was.. unbearable. I wish i could not let u go.. Your tears were true, i could feel it. You know, when u smile.. i smile.. and when u cry.. i cry..

Your last words "i love you" will always remain etched in my heart. Thank you for being part of my life.. I am sure u noe, the door to my heart is always open for you. Someday, sometime, i wish you would still give our love another chance :) I dunno when, but, i still pin some hope..

(As darkness falls.. lonely night sets in... tears rolll....)

MY FAMILY & I WILL DEFINITELY MISS YOU. LOVE YOU, DEARLY.

EMO..

2007-07-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

I hate myself for being an emotional freak.

I hate the fact how i nv fail to hurt him with my senseless accusations.

I hate the way I would deny his love for me after all this years.

I hate myself.

when stress outbeats u..

2007-07-07T10:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when you get too involved in work.. you tend to overlook certain (good) things that has happen and in your mind, its only negative stuffs? like neglected.. unappreciated..

Thats me..

1st week of July just passed & many things hav happen @ work. the word stress is an under-statement. The unbearable stress @ work led to many unnecessary worries..

sigh..

I guess deep down.. gals just wan to be loved & pampered? esp during bad times..? simply, i wish he was there for me.....

life is never a bed of roses?

i hope this "thru thick & thin, we'll stand by each other" is and will always be valid.. :/

crossing my fingers that de wkend will be a happier one. it will be right hubby? (",)

Cheer Up!!!

2007-07-04T21:11:00.001+08:00

Attention Attention!!

cHeeR uP!! just Tahan the work month of july!!! it will be over soon!!!!

Some pictures..

2007-06-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

one of the picnic weekend @ Sentosa with hubby's frens :)

eating.. frisbee-ing.. soccer-ing.. captain ball-ing.. ;p

last weekend was spent to visit hubby's grandma after her mini operation :) bought durians while waiting for hubby. i thought since im not getting any bird nest/ essence of chicken for his grandma, better bring some food there at least?

bah. kena 'scolded' by hubby the moment i entered the car... cos of the durian making de car smell!! boohoo~ see see the car so impt liao lah! hehehe.

thank goodness de durians were good! hubby eat until so shiok (hor??) :):) it was worth the 'scolding' den! hehe... =p nice stuffs are worth sacrificing for? hehehehe!

Sunday.. picked Jo & Emi up for lunchie @ Swensens :)

the sweet sisters with their drinks =p

us exploring the hotel :)

ice creammm~~!!!

26/6 Tuesday
headed to Chong Qing Steamboat @ Liang Seah St. steamboat with the gals... taken before we get too "hot"! hehehe...

She is de gal.. whom i mention earlier in my post.. gonna miss her after she leaves de co *cries*

27/6 Wednesday
took 1/2 day to have my hair snip! it was a good short break... to relief a bit of stress =p it def feels good.. to have a lighter weight on my head, and to be in town wen everyone's working! hehehe... *grin*

hubby brought dinner over after his sch's orientation & had a nice chat over dinner, before we slack on de couch... =p

heh cut both my fringe and back length! :) saw so much of the hair chopped off!! =(

looking forward to de weekend (again)... come July, its gonna be torture @ work for me!

sigh, i so dread it................. :(

P.S. Thanks for coming over dear! Your presence meant a lot to me.. ;)

Stress

2007-06-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

Its only Monday, but feels like Friday..

Recently, the urge to leave tis place is getting stronger.. i hope i can hang on.. till i-dunno-wen. i dun wan to keep switching jobs, but really.. its gonna be unbearable.. very soon.

I was running a fever on Friday nite. wen to visit the doctor on Saturday. was better after medication.. but today, de fever came back (to visit me). here... no such thing called welfare.. despite being feverish, i wasnt allowed to go off for even a short while to visit the clinic.

a lot of things boiling inside me. my boss is getting more n more unreasonable.. i brokedown despite how much i controlled..

I cancelled my supposedly yoga-session with Jo..

my whole body was feeling like a heater but my hands were shivering. my heart started beating v quickly. i felt very giddy. den i started vomiting. took a cab down after work wif de company of my collg. to make matters worst, de cab was so jerky. thankfully i was de first patient..

i had a painful jab on my butt. it hurts badly.. :(

fever was @ 39.1 degree. now i have to measure my temp every 2 hrs.. if it reaches 40 degree, i hav to bring myself to the hospital. sigh, parents arent home at all! *argh* how to bring myself to de hospital ?? :(

sigh sigh.

wen sth bad happens.. every bad things happen!

another work day tmr.. *cries*

feeling very stress ......... ......... ...........

Thankful :)

2007-06-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

i had a long tiring day today.. alas, de wkend is nearing! hee =p

today's a happy day, cos i found back an old fren.. one whom we have not contacted for long cos of some misunderstandings.. its been 2 yrs?

im jus so glad we're now back to normal.. cos i reali treasure this once-lost frenship.

Off to bed! *snooze*

Wilson aka botak aka bomberman is back!

2007-06-20T12:40:00.000+08:00

Aloha! Alright, i know i've been missing in action for the past.. oh well, couple of years? Really been hectic schedule since the day i enlisted till now that i've ORDed, and waiting to start schooling again.. this post will just be an introduction from ME to the OUTSIDE world stating that.. WILSON GOH is back in action! CheeRs~

Plan to journalize my Army exp (w/o pics cos i am still liable to the army for another 10 days), yesh~ the whole TWO yrs of my army life in on entry.. LOl ~ Pls pls anticipate tge arrival of my 2 Year long journal exp in one entry.. Kaoz I sound like selling something.. MLM ! wahaha.. GG for another gym session with My Gay Boi Desmond Lim!

Recently been having some problems, friends/family/Relationship.. Haiyo..

Attn: Dearie..

Baby, think by the time u see this, we shld have finished our dinner, ur safely back home while i am on the way home.. hope things turn out fine later when i go pick u up.. Ytd sorry for not calling.. Mood really not good.. Don't sad liao alright?

Deep in Thoughts

2007-06-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

hubby's gonna start school in 2 wks time. its gonna be a different lifestyle and prolly this phase will determined if our r/s can be sustained.

maybe de best word to describe how i feel is, insecurity.

A worthwhile conversation over lunch..

A: quite sad that im leaving this place so soon... suddenly so many memories in my mind.

B: its for de better rite? not everyone has this opportunity :) i dun even hav this chance..

A: im in a dilemma, cos i aint sure if i can cope with de new envt.. it will be very different..

B: its a matter of time gal..

A: jus now i felt kinda down, emailed my bf about my worries... he said sth which made me feel reali loved n im so happy cos i can feel that he is the one.. i nvr believe in true love.. but now, maybe not..

B: hehe wad did he say???

A: he told me tat even if i were to break de bond and become jobless, he will still be there for me. He wans us to go thru every phase of life tgt.. to go thru thick n thin tgt.. as husband n wife..

B: (after hearing and seeing the smile on her face, i feel really happy. This is one of de best smile i hav seen on her face.. and i feel she has found the Mr Right Guy too)

She ("A") was de first person i spoke to on my 1st day at work.

She was de first person who wish me "happy birthday" on my 22nd birthday.

She has always been my lunch partner.

90% of the time, we order de same food.

Our standard order is always "1 kopi 1 teh tarik".

She always lend a listening ear to my problems, be it work or r/s.

We always email each other to complain, to gossip etc.

We go to de ladies tgt.

We wait for each other to go home tgt be it how late it is (altho we take different trains!).

She is someone i never regretted knowing.. :):)

Will i find my Mr Right Guy too?

New addition to my house

2007-06-14T19:41:00.000+08:00

Food i have to avoid:
-chocolate
-coffee
-tea

Dun get it wrong... i'm not on a diet... =p

How sad, coffee and tea are my favourite! I usually have a cup of tea in de morn, and a cup of kopi in de noon... now i cant have both :(

In short, doctor says i have to consume more veg.. and increase my water intake.. *ahhh*

Seriously... im gonna miss all the mocha/latte/teh ping etc..

Pls dun tempt me ok!! =p

Surgery is not required at de moment, but if i dun control my food..... :(

My colleagues been scaring me... tat i have not been concentrating at work :(

well, i had a bad day at work today in fact. now tat im home.. im trying to take work issues with a pinch of salt. sigh.. its a consolation tat tmr its finally Friday! and im seeing my precious (?) =)

at least hubby had a pretty nice day :) he met an online fren for his car lights, and seems like de guy is sincerely nice, with no ulterior motive :) *thumbs up*

some pics from de last 2 wkends.. June is seriously a birthday month! lol~

slacking at TCC..

Ms Greedy & Mr Strong.. hehe..

Peg's 21st @ Chevrons:

And recently.. my house had a new addition.. ..

yup, mum bought this! Maybe she dun wan me to go outside for spa n spend $$? hehehe...

will try it out soon! hehehe... ;)

Blog revamped!

2007-06-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

hubby might be blogging soon! so i changed de blog a little.. *grin* --> anticipating your entry!

Jo commented tat my recent entries are all so depressing.. hmm. life's full of ups and downs yah? have been feelin down recently.. but okok i promise.. to brighten our blog with cheerful entries in future! :)

as i browse thru the 2006 entries.. all i can conclude is, time really flies! its been a year since hubby commissioned! and i re-read the letter (click here) hubby wrote during his pre-commissioned (stress) period.. how i miss those love letters! --> hint?

=p

Fragile life

2007-06-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

its been a tough week.. and the upcoming week will also be a difficult one.

a week of uncertainties & decision-making..

i came across tis blog fr my fren.. & many thoughts came to my mind. de fragile aspect of life.. is scary.

with lotsa stuff weighing on my mind.. im thankful for him, trying to be always there for me.. i really appreciate de effort. i hope i aint a burden to u.. im trying to get back de smile on me again! =p

will blog again.. wen im in a better state of health. *cross finger* meanwhile, will look fwd to de upcoming numerous birthday celebrations :)

The feeling of depression

2007-05-21T19:01:00.000+08:00

sometimes, we arent jus tt lucky in life.. be it frens/ school/ work/ love/ family...

emotionally, i feel v depressed these days. and more paranoid i guess (?)

i dunno wads exactly on my mind.. cos there's too much things running thru me.. i dunno how to handle. and i dunno who to turn to.

At one moment, i feel like a failure.

everyday i wake up telling myself to be happy, that it is a brand new day of smiles and not tears.. but it nvr worked. it nvr did.

within 1/2hr, there wld be tears in my eyes, be it on de bus/ train.. and at work. de ladies is de best place to calm myself down.. but soon later, my eyes will be welled wif tears (again).

i try to be strong. i try to put on a smile. but deep down.. thats not how i feel.

today, as i approach the mrt track, my mind had a sudden urge to jus walk down into de track..

i think, i feel lost. aimless. and hopeless.

i dunno wad im expecting for, or hoping for.. cos de more i expect, de greater de disappointment..

tonite, i hope i dun cry myself to sleep (again).. .. its painful, in my heart.

EMO

2007-05-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

Recently, been thinking a lot.. bout de future.. sometimes maybe i tink too much, which becomes unhealthy.

But everythg that is happening ard me, has made me increase doubts on lotsa things. I hear bout so many "unfaithful" incidents, tat im so afraid i'll experience de same thg one day.

One fren has been wif bf for 5 yrs.. its long enuf for a r/s to be stable (i feel?). Only to noe tt.. during tis 5 yrs, bf had slept wif 2 other gals..

Another gal fren, unintentionally found her bf 2-timing on her..

what am i suppose to advice dem? i am unsure wad to say myself.. it jus daunt on me tt if ever such situation were to happen to me.. wad will i do??

feeling exceptionally emotional these days.. *DIT*

April updates

2007-04-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

sheesh.. many overdue posts, hehe =p

5Apr
Since the next day was Good Friday, we headed out for dinner @ some thai restaurant @ Centrepoint, then chilled @ Acid Bar. depsite the crowded-ness, we had fun bitching ard! :)

6Apr
Hubby wen for his sao mu in the morn, den drop by my place after tt :) we were supposed to have dinner & mahjong @ his grandma's plc, so while hubby was slping... i decided to make some brownie, hehe :) slept v late tt nite after mahjong =p

the whole month of April, hubby & i have been relying on public transport, hehe. so the lazy us din do much shopping.. more of lazing ard =p

20Apr
we were both on leave. supposedly meeting hubby @ Eunos on thurs for dinner @ my plc. unexpectedly, we bumped into each other in de train cabin! lol~ i got onto de same cabin as him @ Tanjong Pagar! heh.

so Friday.. we slacked at home den headed to Harbourfront -- for our cruise! :)

dun the boarding pass look different? hee.

having our dinner:

on our way to the casino:

woke up to catch de sunrise =p

on our way back:

27Apr
A night spent at.. MOS! The pictures speaks all :)

havoc!

Headed to hubby's plc thereafter.. got up the nex morning, to collect the long awaited car! hehe =p hubby's parents saw de car few days earlier, and constantly told us "the car is gorgeous!". it made hubby & i all the more excited! lol~

28-29Apr
we finally got to see & drive it! the usually lazy us... wen back to giv de car a good wash! hehe. hubby with his beloved wife (he calls it), hehe:

it was hubby's mum bday :) we headed to MS in de evening for Wild Hogs-nice! then at nite, we caught the 2nd half of Man U match @ Chan's place, hehe. supper was then at.. Checkers!

30Apr
hubby took leave, but i was working! lol~ busy like shit... i decided to snip snip my hair after work =p its thinner and shorter now!

1st May
brought our orange baby out for drive to town.. heh =p dinner was late, at Riverside Point- Indonesian Restaurant. yummy!

Happy 26th month hubby, thks for de lovely surprise- a winnie the pooh tumbler for work! :)

22nd Birthday :)

2007-04-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

oops, been neglecting my blog for too long =p hehe.

officially 22 years old too! :) Birthday was spent with lunch @ Spring Court Restaurant wif my family, followed by Disney on Ice featuring Finding Nemo! hehe. There was 10% disc for DBS CC, so we booked the front seats :) nemo... was so cuteeee!! hehehe :p

we had a simple dinner (the after effects of having a heavy lunchie), then met hubby's frens thereafter for soccer :) YAY, MAN U won! lol~

Sunday.. lazy us lazed around in bed and only woke up ard 3+ -.-"" hubby decided to pop by Waffletown! been wanting to go there, but always too full to makan their waffle. Finally, we had the chance to try! hee.

chilling out wif kopi =p

the waffle is.. delicious!! :)

no exact plans in mind, so we wen driving ard Singapore in de evening. hehe. stop by all de clubs @ MS and took a snap wif it, den hanged ard de Singapore River =p

we headed home for home cooked food, then cake at nite :)

lovely heart-shaped tiramisu cake:

-one complete family- :)

It was a simple yet memorable birthday :) Thank u everybody, who send their wishes & gifts, thank you very much :):) I had a surprise to receive a S$50 Taka voucher from my colleagues too! Thanks so much, my family, my hubby & his family, my frens & colleagues! :)

Met my ex-colleagues last Thurs for dinner @ Fish & Co, then dessert @ Big O :) Thanks for the gift too gals! It was a gr8 nights out wif them, tho we had to work the very next day, hee :p

Last wkend, wen out wif hubby's family to settle his car issue :) We're gonna be car-less for quite some time, ah! Oh well... just gotta bear wif it, hehe :p

So this week, we travelled via public transport :) Its fun cos its sth different.. lest the trouble waiting for train & buses and having to squeeze in them =p watched Mr Bean yesterday and had a gd laugh! totally a good show to watch for 2 stress people =p

Today, instead of de usual shopping.. we wen for a swim! hehe. its been so long since i wen bk for a swim, so i tout it was a good idea wen hubby suggested it, hehe :)

took this while resting at the bench :p i love de dolphins.. a pity it wasnt spurting water (which it should be)..

i tink we shld do this more often, hubby says he feels fitter & healthier! hehehe..

got home in de evening.. and made this Butter cake for hubby :) been awhile since i cooked sth for him =p

a short week ahead, hope i dun get de Monday blues tmr! alright.. gonna wake the sleepy pig up now for dinner time, heh =p

:)

2007-03-10T05:15:00.000+08:00

i practically din slp last nite..

my tummy hurt so much, i toss and turn, but stil couldnt get to bed.. :( i finally "surrender" at 4am. made breakfast for hubby :) gonna see him in an hour's time! *smile*

maybe i miss him so much tat i couldnt get to slp? hehe.. other than my painful tummy =p

hav a gr8 wkend peeps! :):):)

Some thoughts

2007-03-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

I was reading FP forum.. and came across this post..

gal and guy have been tgt for 4 yrs. guy demands gal to wear "more branded" clothes as image to him is impt. t-shirt n jeans is a no-no for him.. de gal has to wear spag at least. they had small quarrel, which eventually leaded to their first break up. guy broke into gal's house to take back everythg he bought for her. 1 month later, de guy came kneeling down at her hse to ask for forgiveness. guy confessed to gal tat he had sex wif some gal ("X") tat he knew fr a pub. gal forgave guy after de guy promised tat he will change his temper & abusive behaviour.

afterwhich, de guy confessed another time to gal tat he had sex wif his ex colleague.

WHY? --> "cos he wanted to make sure who he loves, who he wans to be wif".

quoted from the gal -->

" sex to him is like an escape, knowing tat it will hurt me the most. i couldnt tink straight but i forgave him not knowing wad to do & how to react, and he proposed. He told me not to be so naive and tat all guys hav sex outside the r/s and tat he is being faithful by telling me de truth while most guys will not tell their gfs".

guy tells gal tat she has to accept his proposal as his relatives are aware of this "proposal" already, if not gal will be makin him lose face. guy threatened gal to take away the "pet" they had wif ever since dey got togeda.

quoted from the gal -->

"i am reali attached to de pet and hav been taking care of him. He said tat de pet signifies us and since we have broken up, he wants it back. Wen i refused to return to him, he barged into my hse, grabbed de animal and tie him in a plastic bag and put it in his bike's box. He said tat if i want my pet back, i hav to patch up wif him. I agreed knowing tat my pet will die suffocating in the plastic bag. Reporting to de police is uesless bcos he is not afraid".

"i still feel insecure & uncertain bout everythg esp my own future, but i hav tis sad tout in my mind. He told me tat no other man will wan a gal like me cos i hav given my virginity to him & in de end i wld realise he is de only one who wants me. It makes me feel dirty & disgusted wif myself & i suddenly hav 2nd thoughts bout myself".

Its scary hearing such stories.. pple change.. and whether its the truth/ lie.. its reali hard to tell sometimes..

The guy seems emotionally & mentally unstable. To have "sex" as an escape or is it an excuse for forgiveness?? If marriage comes into place, will such incidents not happen again? Its tormenting to follow orders from such a guy.. and even worse, an abusive one. Violent in a r/s? Totally let-down! For someone hu can take his pet as a threatening object.. wads worse if they hav kids in future? The innocent child will be de threatening object?? *ponders* SIGH!

Happy 2nd anniversary!

2007-03-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

its finally gonna be Friday tmr! =p

28/2 -2300-

*phone ring, wake up from my slp*

hubby: baby! happy 2yrs anniversary! i nvr forget ok!

me: huh... haven yet leh.. still got 1 more hour.. hehe

hubby: huh, i purposely call at 830 india time so tat it is 2300 in sg leh..

me: ya lor.. u already say 2300 mah.. 2300 is 11pm only leh..

hubby: oh shit... dun luff at me lah... i lose face liao :/ okok, i put down now, 12midnite den i cor u again..

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01/3 -0000-

hubby: 12midnite le! happy 2yrs wor.

me: hehe.. happy anniversary..

hubby: its been a long journey and thanks for sticking tgt with me..

me: hee..

hubby: baby, 2 dogs came sniffing on my leg.. now they are kissing each other!

me: reali? hehe.. they muz be kissing on behalf of us.. muahaha~

hubby: hehe.. they shall be our metaphor :) call u tmr baby, phone gotta get cut off aldy. gdnite baby dearest.. ************** (censored)

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how time flies~ 2yrs jus past lidat..def treasured memories :):)

lookin back at the good old times..

during our 1st month of pathor.. wen hubby was still so botak! those were de "supper period", hubby and i put on weight lor! *faint* hehe.. tat isnt a couple top wor.. we jus happen to wear sth tat reali look similar to each other :) see de "bobo chacha" at de top left corner? gosh, tat "bobo chacha" made everyone tease and luff.. *hide face* so we changed to "mocha latte"... =p

the 2nd month :) im heavy.. but hubby insisted on carrying.. *blush* heh.

sweet lovely memories :) thanks for calling, hubby. i appreciate de thought :):)

-MOCHA & LATTE-

Surprise!

2007-02-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

=p it was a busy day at work, seeing this email from hubby simply made me smile :) LOVE YOU, MY PRECIOUS!

yeap, counting down to 10th March now :) gonna cook something for hubby.. no curry for him definitely! hehe :p

Happy CNY!

2007-02-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! how was everyone's cny?? =p i am so in the cny mood tat i dun feel like going back to work at all! lol~

The eve of CNY was spent picking up hubby from the airport :) den had reunion dinner at my uncle's plc, afterwhich headed to River Hongbao wif hubby. it wasnt' as crowded as we expected. we took a stroll, catching up wif lost time =p hubby sure had a fun time in india! heh..

1st day of CNY, woke up super early to start the visiting. had lunchie at my mum's bro place to have his zhao pai "prawn noodle"! its a tradition every year, hehe :p

dad took this while waiting for sis :) nice new look of our brand new house! =)

hubby picked me up ard 4 to visit his grandma :) more to gamble i guess? wahaha~ gambled till 1am... wanted to play mahjong, but hubby was tired liao. heh. it was fun nevertheless! really thankful tat hubby's relatives are so nice pple to be wif :)

i love them all! :):) we wen crazy taking photos, heh.

2nd day of CNY, waited for dear bro to be home before we headed out. poor bro, had to do duty on de 1st day! :(

we squeeze all de visiting so we were done by noon time :) tired! relatives came to our place for dinner & gambling, hehe. SHIOK!

3rd day of CNY, hubby and i wen out for movie - Just Follow Law! heh, very funny! lol~ couldnt do much shopping as we had plans thereafter. hubby sent me to his uncle's condo @ Simei for his granduncle's birthday celebration while he goes to his fren's place.

i was "dragged" to the gambling section de moment i step in, LOL! once there, i cant stop gambling! wahaha~ won a little $$.. hehe..

this was at the function room, preparing for dinner & having yu sheng :)

aint she cute? i only see her once a year! hehe :p

hubby's dear cousins :) a pity claire & candice wasnt able to come for de dinner :/

-us during CNY 2007-

last wkend, we caught 2 more movies - Ghost Rider & The Protege. not too bad! :) had dinner togeda wif hubby's side @ Hongkong Street, den mahjong at nite :) Sunday - had early birthday high tea for mum @ Goodwood Park:) pics not wif me yet, hubby brought de camera to India, hehe =p

time to get back to work! sian~ no holidays for March at all! *faint* ooh, there's my birthday to look fwd to tho, hehe =p

bon voyage hubby! *smiles*

Happy Valentines Day!

2007-02-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines Day to all! =)

another commercialized day =p with flowers.. chocolates.. all prices wen up soo much! :(

hubby called at 12midnite to send his wishes "over the phone". wad more can i ask for? (of cuz i wish he was by my side!) his small gesture touched me.. tat i couldnt get to slp.. i was still tossing n turning at 3am! -.-"

wen to work today, wif de almond chocolates i made de nite before.. =p its super addictive! this was taken wen de chocolate was forming:

hehe.

this came as another surprise wen i receive de flowers! (not all de way from india of cuz.. hee)

i got elated and took close up pics of de flower, hehe =p

hubby used to complain tat after givin flowers to me, i'll jus chuck it one side in de car, and dun even bother to hold it out :( today.. i travelled togeda wif de flower, from my office, to Great World City, den to Tiong Bahru, den Bugis, and finally back home. (!!) de flower and i combed so many places rite? i felt like i was carrying a baby! heh. i cant tink of any words to describe how my heart felt =p but i felt reali paiseh holding de flowers into office :/ eee.... very shy! *grin*

thank you, my love :) it was a sweet surprise :):)

you've been my pillar of strength, my hope. i'll be strong, jus to be with you, even if its 1 more day.

listening to our song, "tong hua" still do bring back sweet memories of how we started :) another 14days to our 2nd anniversary! :):)

The eventful weekend

2007-02-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

finally... another 4 days till hubby's return :):)

the belated pics taken @ Carribean 2 wks ago:)

the pretty babes? hehe.

the swimming pool :):)

first group :)

second group :)

the nite view! so nice rite? hehe..

been shopping (and jus shopping) the past week.. but nothin reali fancy me leh :/ sob sob. not reali in de CNY mood this year.. heard tat my brother has to go back on de 2nd day! :( oh well, some things are jus not within control.. boohoo~

met Jo & ex-colleagues for dinner last wk.. been awhile since i saw them! so hard to arrange where all can mit lar... this is not even full attendance... heh. one fell sick :(:(

den.. i wen down to JB last wkend with my parents :):) its soooo packed, as expected!! stayed there for half a day.. and... we encountered FIRE!! omg~ it was pretty scary in fact. i was in another shop trying on clothes, while my parents were at the cafe waiting for the food. i wen to find them after awhile.. and within 1 min.. there was a bomb sound! and someone screamed "FIRE!" i turned my head, saw this big big fire, and ppl running n pushing aldy! amidst the running, my father was actually holding on to the spoon! (cos he was eating wen the fire happened... -.-")

wad an experience! thank god, we're all fine... :) i tell you... my heart nvr beat so fast before =p *phew*

do i still wanna go there? ......... OF CUZ! lol...

we had dinner at some dunno-wad restaurant.. taking a breather after an eventful day! hehe.

I'll be missing you :)

2007-02-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

its Saturday morning, 1241 am :) i tink de coffee i had earlier is keepin me awake =p jus got home from dinner wif peiling :) nice catching up!

was on leave since Thurs.. slept till so shiok! hee. hubby had some report to do, so i ran some errands for him and some shopping, but din buy anything, heh. met him for a late lunch @ Parkway. we wen home in de evening for him to settle his luggage. in de midst of it, he realise he missed out some stuff. so we travelled bk to his camp! :( *faint* this blur sotong... =p

wad was de last thg he did before sleepin? --> playin his game! sian 1/2. lol~ see, he miss his game more lor! haha~ he is always smiling wen he's involved in his game :) tho pek chek sometimes cos im left all alone.. but seeing him happy, i try to be happy for him too :) dun wan to quarrel wif him and spoil our mood :/

we woke up on Friday for lunch togeda wif his parents, den headed to de airport early :) its different seeing hubby lead a group of men tis time :) last nite before slpin, he mentioned feelin stress cos he has much more responsibilities now. he asked me how i felt bout him goin for this 'trip'.. i said "i feel proud of you. cos you are now a leader. im sure ur parents feel de same too". he smiled upon hearin tat, and prolly subconsiously became more confident bout himself :)he says he wans his son to noe tat his father was once a qualified Officer! hee =p

havin much more responbilities might mean.. havin more sacrifices. he plans leave for his men.. but he himself stays in camp to make sure things go well.. even if it means givin up his leave. he has to reach earlier than his men.. sometimes, it can be 1-2 hrs earlier! oh well~ you dun get higher $$ for nothin yah? after all, time = $$.

before we bid goodbye.. his tight hug made me felt very she bu de. i was tryin to be composed and control my emotions, but before i cld say "bye-bye", i was aldy tearing. sigh! the heart n brain jus wun cooperate :(

hubby: "be strong and take care of urself. i'll always be here supporting and loving you. i miss you, dear".

suddenly.. i felt a sense of loss.. the loss of hubby's presence. i wish.. things will go well for you, my love :) to lead.. and to excel.. jiayou wor! =) i'll be praying for your safety & awaiting your return! *muack*

Destiny - by Jim Brickman

What if I never knew

What if I never found you

I'd never have this feeling in my heart

How did this come to be

I don't know how you found me

But from the moment I saw you

Deep inside my heart I knew

Baby you're my destiny

You and I were meant to be

With all my heart and soul

I give my love to have and hold

And as far as I can see

You were always meant to be my destiny

I wanted someone like you

Someone that I could hold on to

And give my love until the end of time

But forever was just a word

Something I'd only heard about

But now you're always there for me

When you say forever I believe

Maybe all we need is just a little faith

'Cause baby I believe that love will find the way

Baby you're my destiny

You and I were meant to be

With all my heart and soul

I give my love to have and hold

And as I far as I can see

From now until eternity

You were always meant to be my destiny

Happy birthday precious!

2007-01-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

suppose to be sleepin now.. hafta wake up early for work tmr! but im in de mood to blog now, hehe :p

the 2nd wk of Jan, hubby had his car serviced. we sent his car to de garage early in de morn, den explored with using public transport! hee. we took bus 15 to Parkway :) waited so long for de bus, hence de pics, hehe :p its been soOOooo long hubby took public transport tat he claim he couldnt stand properly on de bus! he stepped on ppl's toe for like 3 times?

3rd wk of Jan.. celebrated daddy's birthday @ Station Kitchen :) its located @ St James Power Station :) nice Jap food, nice concept! expensive too! lol~

brother & sis w/their other half :)

ah! hubby blinked!

lovely parents :)

last wkend of Jan.. celebrated hubby's birthday :) we had high tea @ Meritus Mandarin on Sat :) good ambience! excellent view! :) it is known for their panoramic view, similar to Equinox @ Swissotel.

in the lift.. feelin excited..

we were directed to the 38th floor..

and..

we were welcomed with this complimentary chocolate fondue! *sinful*

the view hubby took while enjoying his high tea.. hehe..

it is revolving.. finally managed to capture the hotel name! hee.

us, before we left in our heavy tummy.. :)

see hubby behind? it was his idea! *boo*

we did a bit of shopping after tat den headed home for dinner with his mum :) lovely! we caught the Singapore VS Malaysia soccer match on Chn 5 too.. tho hubby was mostly spending time wif his game! haha~ YAY Singapore won! :):)

this msg came a tad too early.. it was on 21st Jan New Paper.. when i actually requested for it to be published on 28th Jan instead. boohoo~ so on 21st.. hubby's fren called him "eh is tat u on papers?". and yah.. it did not became a surprise in the end.. SIANZ. before hubby cld see it by himself, he was already being informed! zzZzzz... sian diao! anyway.. its de tout tat counts la hor?

Happy 22nd birthday precious!

On a funnier note.. he told me his men now calls him "SIR Latte".. it made me luff on a Monday - cured my Monday blues! wahahah~ how this Mocha Latte nickname came about.. shall remain sth special just between the 2 of us, hehe *grin*

gonna be a short wk for me ahead.. took leave on thurs & fri to send hubby off :) tho its de 3rd time he's goin overseas.. but.. i still feel sore! hate de feelin of saying "goodbye".

..love you..

Happy 2007!

2007-01-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

Happy 2007!<p>

how was everyone's countdown? hee :p the end of 2006, the beginning of 2007 :)

one of my fren is gettin married in 2007! so happy for her :) so excited for her too! *grin*

instead of squeezing with the crowd @ Esplanade (which we did last yr, lol), we gathered 4 cars to makan @ Bedok 85, then to ECP's Beach Cabana to chill. there was a tad much time, so we decided to find a place to sit and tok cok. =p as 2007 arrived, we each light up de sparkle and threw it far far away to throw away our worries! hehe... :) may 2007 be the year filled with more happiness and less sadness! =) supper at KAP Mac after tat den home sweet home. *tired*

hubby's cousin is workin part-time at Cathay's Ben & Jerry, so we popped her a visit, heh. she was pretty busy, so pretty hard to capture a shot with her! hehe..

Cheers Jo!

during tat long wkend, togeda with the poly peeps, we headed to Jurong for.. zhi bao ji (paper chicken)! *yummy* we waited for an hr, but it was worth the wait! hehe.. ended up @ Chevrons bowling after tat. *smiles*

2nd Jan was also a public holiday, so shiokk hur hur! hubby had lunchie with his army gang, and so i was deciding between goin home or goin out =p end up.. i wen to colour my hair! *oops* spend money again! hehe. wanted to do it nearer to CNY, but .. but.. i still did it tat day! hehe. afterwhich had coffee with the rest :) fun!

oh yeah, we also watched 2 movies tat day - Death Note 2 and Night at the Museum! NICE! =p

last Fri, i wen for my follow-up check. but.. the doctor was not ard tat day! (it was a diff doc). grr~ so i wen on Saturday morning :/ wen for a 2nd X-Ray, sian! :( now gotta wait for another 3 more days. boo.

hubby picked me up thereafter.. but we ended up goin bk to my place to ZzzZZz! *snores* left home in the evening to have dinner with hubby's relatives. it was his grandma's birthday! :) food was nice, but service a bit de.. not-very-good leh.

met our poly frens again for another round of bowling @ Marina Sq, heh. so funny seeing them play lor! very kan chiong for them, cos the loser had to treat supper :p supper was at ECP Mac (again)! omg, now you see the reason why im growing side ways? hehe..

so nice to reminisce the past memories of schoool days :) it was a nice hangout with them tho i was pretty tired :( it was about 3am by the time hubby and i wen off to dreamland -.-

lucky hubby managed to wake up for his soccer match on Sunday! otherwise sure kena suaned by them liao! muahahah~ i continued to sleep.. hehe, until it was lunch time =p lunch was @ West Coast Seafood Restaurant togeda wif hubby's parents :) been awhile since we makan togeda :) *smiles* we received ang pao from his parents! his mum say this is to wish us good luck for the new year ahead! *thank you aunty*

it was kinda funny reading wad hubby's mum wrote: "jac baobei, a great year ahead! love, mum & dad". the very first time hubby's parents gave me my b/day present, she wrote "love, from M & D", then she stood there cheekily waiting for me to guess what does "M & D" stands for. hubby was lookin at me, all eyes were on me, so paiseh! he kep emphasizing "Mum and Dad leh!"*blush*

hubby with his fav lobster =p

the "Gohs"

my colleague jus sent me this photo, so tout of posting this up. it was during our Xmas Exchange :) everyone is happy cos of the long wkend! muahah.. too bad my closer frens were all on leave! otherwise, it wld be purrfect.. :)

2 exams at the end of this month, sian! hope i can graduate smoothly! *prays*

lookin fwd.. to the wkend (again)! hee.

Xmas Updates :)

2006-12-26T22:44:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas! =)

time flies, long holiday over le! sianZzzz!

The planned xmas bbq was called off cos hubby had to do duty on xmas eve! *booOooo* it was a last min thingy.. so oh well.. nvm :) to brighten de mood, hubby suggested with jus de 2 of us bbq-ing on Saturday instead :) last yr, we had it @ a multi storey carpark =p this yr, it was at my place, using the balcony :p hehe!

food was good.. fire was good.. our tummy were totally filled up! heh. whats even better when you can bbq and watch soccer at de same time? hehe..

Xmas eve.. hubby was in camp, while i tried to study a little :( exams comin soon! argh. headed to my aunt's hse for a xmas dinner & gift exchange :) fun!

hubby sorta sneaked our later at nite.. he picked us up, send my parents home and we drove to ECP for supper. countdown there too! *grin* time was short, but it was worth it :) thank goodness nothin happen to him! no one revealed that he sneaked out, hehe =p

had a good long slp @ hubby's plc on Xmas.. totally shag out! plus recently i kp havin nitemares! :( i had a hard time waking hubby up (as usual!), but this time i had to reali force him to wake up.. cos we had a movie to catch! tix were already booked! =p Curse of the Golden Flower :) niceee! Jay Chou looks funny in the show tho =p

lookin fwd to New Yr's Eve now :) gonna hav a mini-bbq with the guys! hopefully no one complains bout us being too noisy =p 2007 is approaching!

dad got back my xray results for me, hehe cos i was too lazy to travel =p doc says there's a growth (or sometimes known as stone) which is up to me if i wanna remove. dunno if it came at the right/ wrong time, cos im stil pretty new to the co, it wouldnt be tat nice if i were to be sick for so many days.. but den again.. sigh, you cant choose a day to be sick rite? sian! worst, my exams are coming! *faint*

i tink i dun feel tat worried yet.. cos the growth isnt deadly:) imagine sth growing inside u? its scary tho! heh. oh well.. whatever happens, i'll enjoy this journey with dearest :) some things are just destined huh? *deep in touts*

hopefully, 2007 will be a better yr for all of us.. Happy New Yr in advance!

6 more days to Xmas!

2006-12-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

6 more days to Xmas! hehe~

last wk been a hell of suffering, cos i was sick the whole wk! lying on the bed 24 hrs everyday, and eating porridge all 3 meals for 6 days! i reali felt like not eating towards de end... :( terrible! glad im feelin much better now :) can smile already! hehe.. =p

scary! i had many diff types of med to eat! *faint*

the prev event - my co's D & D was funnnn! altho i din win any prizes lar :/ we dressed ourselves, but... we left our hair as it is! i tout our hair made de pics totally "off". wad a pity! *sob* towards the end, the Jap managers performed this "guo mei mei" dance, totally made us luff it off! *gosh* they were in skirts! and de dance was simply humourous!! some of the shots tat nite:

this is my boss! hehe..

hubby picked me up thereafter and we headed to Xin Wang for supper (!!). the guys had their supper =p i was too full, hehe. got to bed ard 2am.. feelin totally shag out! :(

oh yea, over de wkend, i attempted making muffins =p i din like it, guess it was too buttery for my taste buds. but hubby say it wasnt too bad, and so he finished it :p *gee*

we were at Suntec on Saturday and wanted to rest our legs.. so decided to 'stopover' @ Ben & Jerry. believe it or not, we have not tried their ice cream before! tho we did hear raves bout how good their ice cream is, we jus din try, lol. so finally.. a chance came..

disappointment sets in.. lol..

we tout.. it was not worth the money at all! maybe we chose the wrong flavour :/ we agreed tat venezia ice cream tasted much better! heh.

on a happier note.. bonus was credited last wk! *yay* so happy with the bonus, its so much more than i expected! makes me more motivated to work even harder now =p *happy*

few wks ago, we also took some studio photos. been wanting to do tat since hubby's commisioned nite, but he wasnt able to get de uniform out of camp. heng ah, he had to wear for his boss's wedding few wks ago, so.. we took the chance to quickly chop chop tk photo! hehe.

hubby like this, he made it into 8R =p

i particularly like this shot, hehe.

i tout the backgrd looks like some "sunset" colour.. which matched our planned dressing of "beachwear" :)

hubby surprise me with this watch :) to replace the spoilt one :) i love the face.. i love the belt.. i love the colour.. wad more can i still say? he say its my super early birthday present! heh. it cost him... a few dollars to a 4-digit, oops =p thank u precious!

counting down to de wkend.. meetin de gals for dinner! *excited* den a long long wkend with hubby! *cheers*

Have a good Xmas peeps! =)

Down on my luck!

2006-12-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

be i feel older and weaker :( and not forgetting, fatter :(

last nite, i wanted to watch de new 9pm show, but within 10 mins.. i fell asleep -.- suppose to study too, so end up, din accomplish much, ah!

another 3 more days to de wkend! *dreaming* some big scene happen @ work today. apparently, my drawer had caused 'someone' to fell down. crap! why am i always so sway~ she fell down reali quite badly.. i got a shock myself (since her scream was so freakin loud)! i tink im gonna to be blame for her fall, since she hit onto my drawer :( eyes were all lookin at me, and she told everyone it was bcos of my drawer tat she blah blah blah..! *pissed* oh well, guess im down on my luck. to prevent anymore of this "screaming incident", i decided to remove de drawer tmr.. wad to do? sigh!

classes are getting packed, and adding to the workload.. my classes hav moved location! meaning, longer rides on de train :( argh. sian 1/2.

last wkend was spent @ Expo as we wen to SITEX :) half a day was spent there! hee. hubby finally got his laptop, so he's a happy boy now :) i din get anythg! *sulks* hehe. no plans.. so we had a short walk down town.. crazily taking the pics below.. we had a good laugh thereafter! =p

Happy belated 21st month hubby! *muack*

felt a bit sickish in the evening, so i took a nap @ hubby's plc, while he 'explored' his new toy - the laptop! hehe. after i woke up, he was still fideling with his laptop! =p hungry me, only get to had my dinner @ 11pm! *boohoo* hehe.

this wkend gonna be short, but still lookin fwd to it :) Company's D & D on Friday.. hubby attending his boss's wedding on Sat.. so its gonna be a reali short one! gonna.. miss him! =)

Motorshow2

2006-11-22T19:11:00.000+08:00

wen for a farewell dinner on Mon -- for my ex colleague! hehe, so happy for her, tmr is her last day le! :)

feelin v tired on Monday! *old le* felt v sian @ work, only hubby noes why :/ oh well, i hav to jus live with work shitss.. heh.

i miss him lots. he has become my pillar of support. hubby told me its confirm that he'll b away for 2 months next yr..! *cries* sad.. yet i cant do anythg bout it :( i dun wanna send him off to de airport again! it'll be the 3rd trip he has.. sigh!

last wkend, we had a fun-filled time togeda :) we watched Casino Royale @ Vivocity, thanks to daddy for the free tix! den we wen to the Motorshow again! hehe.. jus to watch the stunt show! geez. another 20 bucks =p bleah, at least it was worth it and hubby is happy :):) that makes me a happy gal too! *smiles* we had a chance to sit in the car too, so thumbs up! hehe.. some pics of the stunt show:

had yummy dinner with hubby's relatives @ Jumbo Restaurant on Sunday :) delicious! hehe.. its been quite awhile since i saw all of them.. heh=)

Xmas deco @ Wisma & Parkway:

its gonna be December sooonnnn! hehe.. last Dec, hubby and i had our own mini celebration by having our own bbq @ the highest floor @ the carpark @ his plc! hehe.. this yr, shld b sth simpler ba.. cos hubby will be busy right after Xmas! sob..

feelin kinda sad everytime i tink of hubby's overseas trip.. argh! no CNY! no V-day! no anniversary! no birthday! boohoo~~ silent night.. lonely night.. lalala...

2 more days to the wkend!

*you noe.. you noe.. you noe.. you mean so muchie to mE! =p Miss you my precious. thank you for always trying to be there for me.. and putting a smile on my ugly face, LUP YOU!*

Tired monday!

2006-11-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

i am sooOooo tired @ work today! keep yawning non stop! =p

headed to the Motorshow last wkend with hubby, as expected, so packed! hehe.. and while we were happy snapping, my camera died on me! *cries* boohoo!

had hubby's car mod too.. he changed his lights to angel eyes, heh. so he's a happy boy now.. hehe.. *smiles*

things been gg pretty well for hubby :) last wk, his boss told his fren "i was bias to him last time. i realise that he is actually quite hardworking. i shall remove him from my blacklist". -.-" de moment his fren told him tat.. he called me complainin that it is true all along that his boss did not like him.. oh well, at least now all is fine :):)

but but.. bcos he is de only officer trained in some equipment .. he was asked to go India next yr! crap~ initially it was jus 3 wks.. but now, it seems like its gg to be for 2 freakin months! Feb to March! *cries* WHY LIDAT! :( boohoo.... we will miss valentines day.. chinese new year.. our anniversary.. and my birthday :(:(

sometimes.. we jus dun hav control over certain things.. boo! having lessons again, sian!

very tired now, so jus enjoy the pics k? :)

counting down to de wkend again! hee =p

:)

2006-10-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

getting busier these days. trying to learn as much as i can @ work. still haven touch my books yet! argh.

hubby's course has ended, which means his "more freedom" days is also over. o'well. some outdated pics taken all in Oct.. :)

we checked out Vivocity! heh. lotsa shops, but the crowd is.. unbearable! i tink i wld rather go elsewhere :/ nevertheless, it was an eye-opener :) unique shopping centre! love the lo-mantic sea view! hehe.

we were @ Suntec last wkend and happened to see all the Halloween stuffs.. hehe and got playful with all the costumes.. we even tried the maze with spider webs, LOL!

in de evening, we celebrated our 20th month @ Esplanade :) no big treats nor huge present, just enjoying er ren shi jie for that moment =p its been quite awhile we spent some time alone togeda! :) it is necessary once in awhile hur?

headed to Liquid Kitchen thereafter to watch soccer togeda wif mou & co. wad an exciting match! hehe.. all the "goal! goal!" made de atmosphere sooOooo gan chiong! hehehe..

Sunday, we were in town after Bukit Timah prata and pattaya rice for lunch =p

yeah cars again! wahahha. pretty pretty!! =p

we took a short walk along Orchard Rd :) and den i was stopped by some pple, asking me to take part for some "Cinderella" contest? FAINT. apparently de photographer will hav to tk 2 shots of ur face. hubby kept asking me to go for it, so paiseh can! :/ i chop chop stand thr let them tk lor, with a sticker that shows my contestant number, so embarassing!

we walked past tat area 3 times, and all that 3 times, diff ppl ask me to join again! hubby said he aldy predicted it so he was prepared n replied them immd "erh she take her photo jus now aldy".. i was luffing for de 3 times he had to repeat it! lol... *grin* will write more bout this contest when de details are out. actually i myself dun reali noe wad tis contest is bout also! LOL.

been de 2nd wk at work.. still learning learning.. de ppl thr are still quite approachable n my bosses are mainly japanese! =p seriously, i cant wait for de wkend! been feelin v lethargic these days cos i hafta wake up much earlier now since i moved house! boohoo~

but obviously.. during wkend i feel less tired lor! hehehe.. every wkend is so precious now, time flies very fast esp during wkend lar! plus, hubby has duty de following wk and the nex nex wk! sob sob~

i feel that 2006 past super duper fast! its already November tmr! and and.. my "going to be 2 yrs old watch".. 2 of de diamond drop out! ahhhhh! *cries* its my 20th birthday gift from hubby! damn sad :(

miss you muchies, my lovely boy.

Moved - new house! :)

2006-10-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

~good morning!~

hehe. officially at my new place already :) moved yesterday! the number of stuff that had to be moved.. reali can faint arh! thank god hubby has been helpin me 'transport' my stuff over (almost) every wkend, so im done with my unpacking le! hehe. dun wan to end up last minute rumbling for stuff :/

had dinner with hubby and he came over to see see my new (messy) house! hee. supposedly going to meet his men - not for army stuff ok! its to play games! *faint* but end up not going cos one was sick or sth.. since i finish my exams liao, i told hubby to teach me how to play the game, lol! as long as the game is not those dizzy dizzy kind, den it is ok with me! last time i actually learned how to play Counter Strike! muahah.. but i cannot tahan the screen, cos make me very giddy so i had to giv up :(

heh. i dunno y i mention suddenly tat i miss the GunBound days.. den .. hubby wen to download for me on my com! *evil thoughts* i can start playin again! muahahha.. i was a .. semi addict lar! every nite reali play without fail during poly days, lol! so last nite, hubby was @ my plc till ard 2am.. playin GunBound! LOL.

Thursday was my last day @ DBS.. actually i wasnt reali workin on tat day la. de day was spent packing up my desk.. and mingling wif my frens! lol. so shiok, boss was on MC! muahahah... my colleagues gave me a surprise treat! hehe, thanks gals.. :) the next half of the day, i was at their seats 'gossiping' with them, till 530pm! hehehe.. one by one gave me all their wishes until make me so she bu de to leave.. but of cuz, no more lookin back! :) there's still many lunches with them cos my new office is jus walkin distance from them, hehe :p startin my new workplace nex Monday.. a bit nervour and worried! hehe. hope the peeps there are nice too :):)

school's gettin reali tied up for me.. my last sem has started.. and the last 2 modules is reali chimology lor! :( jialat already! sigh sigh! *headache* oh well, i'll jus try my best.. fail den.. suck thumb liao lor! muahahah.. thats wad hubby always tell me, LOL.

ok la, i'll jus enjoy this wkend first huh.. hubby's comin down for breakfast! hehe *smiles* he told me to call him @ 930.. but as usual.. sure cannot wake him up one! heh.. bah, since he wen home so late yest, better let him rest more. if he dun hav enough sleep.. you'll see the ugly side of him! super duper bad tempered! even i am also not spared ok!*oops* hehe. my stomach very hungry :/ *grin*

I'll miss ya!

2006-10-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

just finished a paper yesterday. sigh, tink im reali down on my luck. wad i study as usual din come out much & vice versa. sian 1/2. now dunno if i can pass the exam a not :/ how how~ *fan nao*

supposed to meet hubby after my exam but his army stuff held him back. seeing me so down, he drove to my plc @ 2am to acc me. thks hubby, reali appreciate that effort :) hai, feelin v sucky these days.

2 more wks before i bid goodbye to DBS! hehe.. tadah, tk a peek at my messy work place:

my dear colleagues:

i'll miss them real lots..! *emotional* hope i get to meet such nice friends again @ my new workplace! :)

*looking forward to the wkend.. cant wait to be in your arms again..love you hubby!*

Lil updates

2006-09-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

(back for a lil updates..)

with regards to work.. i've gave my letter! hehe. was kinda nervous initially cos dunno whether to tel my supervisor the truth a not i.e. that ive found another job. the moment in his room was horrible man. kena question from head to toe (!!) so now, im serving my 1 month notice.. 19th of Oct will be my last day :)

last Fri was terrible. i tink my 8 character reali clash with my officer. every single thing i do/ say, he doesnt seem to like/ believe. its very irritating cos i dunno wad i did wrong everytime it happens! i tink he is havin PMS lo! *grr* another dept did not proceed with some transaction and only inform us at 5pm that day. called them, n dey told me they were short handed thus the slowness. of cuz that is such an unreasonable reason so i inform my officer bout their "reason". end up? i get scolded!

him: "why now then u come and tell me? already 5pm ok! what u wan me to do now? short handed? that is not a valid reason ok! dun u tink u shld kp calling them until they do it? i rely on you to follow up you know? why u always mistake? this is not the first time already!"

me: "i have been calling them the whole morning and afternoon. no one picked up so i emailed them but no one replied me either. so wad am i suppose to do?"

him: "u sure a not? u call them n no one pick up? from wad i noe, they just sit beside each other ok"

me: "ya they sit beside each other but do u noe that when they are busy, they will off their ringer?"

him: "oh really?"

(i was super pissed, i just walked away since he din wan to tok to me anymore..)

BLOODY HELL.

i was so mad. seriously, i dunno wad i did wrong? i ask my colleagues and they were tellin me in the first place i dun even need to follow up! argh crap.. *blood boil* and wassup with the "u always make mistake"! wa lau, super mad at that sentence also. he is always spoiling my Fridays one!

thank god hubby could book out that nite.. sigh.. i hope my next job wld be better sailing :/

some backdated pics.. my dearest brother's POP:

dear brother got posted to CCK - signal unit -.-" faint. my brother is getting more and more matured each day :):) 2wks ago was his gf's bday, and he secretly brought this puzzle to camp to do! its the effort and thought that counts ya?

last last Sun, we had a mini picnic! hehe :) got up early to prepare the food! *excited*

hubby trying to figure out how to open the box..

ah, all my favourite food!

home made egg sandwich with lotsa mayo!

us, before the rain starts pouring..

it was a lovely Sunday. im glad hubby love the food. even tho i had to sleep a bit lesser, it was worth it! *feel loved*

we drove down to see see the new hse thereafter :)

the living room:

im amazed by the lights!

the lights changes colour every few seconds!

beautiful! hehe..

last Sat, wen for a minor surgery, now having 3 stitches on my forehead :( boohoo. pain like hell.. lunch was @ hubby's grandma place. hubby had wedding dinner to attend at nite so our wkend just flew away lidat.. :/ hubby picked me up after his dinner; had a good sleep :)

moving to the new place end of next month :) now, hafta mug for my exams (again)..

you've been in my mind, wherever i am.. seeing you happy makes me truly happy :) you noe how much you mean to me.. love you lots, hubby.

-the Bintan trip-

2006-09-09T09:05:00.000+08:00

hehe, been quite awhile since i touched this blog :p busy busy with work & studies!

19/8-20/8
hubby had things @ camp. i wen to see see our new hse with mum & dad :) its gonna be a tad more inconvenient but oh well, what to do, bigger room means hafta sacrifice hur. anyway my room has been painted pink colour! hehe.

21/8-22/8
day off for both of us! :) a good break, definitely. we lazed ard @ home, window shop, eat & slp! so nice wen u dun hafta tink bout work! *daydreaming*

26/8-27/8
i wen to cut my hair! ok la, only the fringe. but not much of a difference on the surface, but its defnitely thinner! hehe. hubby overslept so i walked n walked ard till he came :/ dinner was @ No Signboard Restaurant! hubby's mum treat from the winnings! *YAY* a total of 16 pax.. total bill came up to S$1,038! <-- go buy 4D! thanks aunty! hehe. the food was delicious, esp the seafood of cuz! a pity hubby dun reali fancy crabs. but nvm, i like! muahhahaha... the view he tried to take from our seat:

dinner ended ard 830 and we took a slow walk back to the carpark. heh. coincidentally, after hubby sent an sms to chan, we bumped into them @ the carpark! lol~

we din had much plans after dinner. hubby suggested checking out the Safra @ Telok Blangah since i've nvr been thr before. wow, it looked kinda grand n definitely big! there was a wedding dinner that day too! :)

taken before we left. i had to clipped my hair, cos the fringe's too short! :p

Sunday, hubby had to go for the army marathon thingy -.-" he told me to continue sleepin and mit him after his thg, but on 2nd thoughts, i thought i shld do some revision lar. so i headed to Changi Airport Mac to study. damn fulfilling! hehe.

1/9
supposed to be hubby's block leave, but he was called back -.-" he picked me up for a very late dinner! *hungry* we headed to Phin's Steakhouse and tried their "Platter for 2". so-so only lar~ next time must try their steak! lol.

waiting for our food:

happy 18th months! those are actually chocolate muffins! :)

2/9-4/9
in a sleepy mode, we woke up early on a Saturday morning to head to the ferry terminal.

on the ferry:

we "loitered" ard the beach while waiting for the room to be rdy:

in the evening, we took a shuttle bus to Pasar Oleh Oleh:

another delicious dinner there:

On Sunday, buffet breakfast @ the hotel:

pics @ the beach & pool on Sunday morning:

i kept luffing wen i took this! hubby says he wanna "eat the island" so i was forced to take n take until he happy. *faint*

we checked out their jaccuzi! shiok!

cute little boy! he kept going near the 'pressure' to make his top "explode big big" den he'll laugh laugh laugh! aww... *cute*

we skipped lunch that day cos we had plans for snorkeling! din wan to snorkel wen stomach bloated one :/

the water sport area, waiting for the rest:

a speedboat drove us to the "large water" where we were given the green light to snorkel. a pity we din manage to capture the beautiful corals & fishes cos we din bring a waterproof camera! sob~ nex time, hafta remember le! :/ the whole thing took bout 1.5 hours, pretty tired after it! *shag*

we had a gd rest in the hotel before we headed to Kelong for our dinner! :) beautiful place!

we ordered more than we cld finish, but still forced outselves to finish! *greedy* hubby said:" so romantic here, lets order one cappacuino & one latte". lol~ it was indeed a romantic place :)

and again, waiting for the bus to bring us back..

Monday morning, the buffet spread:

hubby pointing up to where our room is:

last few shots before we check-out, outside Room 2147:

we checked out @ 1pm, den chose to hav our lunch @ Poolside Restaurant. hubby's lamp chop:

and my steak:

had ice-cream for our dessert!

this is the trademark figurine @ Pasar Oleh Oleh!*hehe*

home sweet home on Monday nite! had a quick dinner @ Pastamania before we parted :) a trip i enjoyed very much. hubby says, "next stop redang!" *dreaming*

back from holiday, got lotsa work to clear! and my assignment deadline all reaching soon! argh. right now, just gonna enjoy my wkend with hubby! gotta give him morning call liao! :P

P.S. my brother is POP-ing next wed! after 15wks of training! hehe, so excited & happy for him:) hope he gets a good posting! love him! :D

-feeling pissed-

2006-08-17T22:18:00.001+08:00

i feel.. very tired. zzZzz~ totally drained out fr work. my limit is reachin the max, gettin lotsa shit fr work and im so damn pissed that i reali wan to quickly tender. horrible. everyday, i feel my blood pressure going up and my heart been hurtin a lot recently. *worried* sigh. today, my colleague and i kena another scolding for some stupid stuff which we dunno anythg bout! anythg that goes wrong, we get the blame, fuck. crap~ here we are doing all the shit, clearing all the rubbish, and there one corner, we hear 'them' gossiping and laughing away. hello, we are also human being rite? wtf. wen we talk, we get those 'weird stares'. bloody hell~

i cant wait to get out of here. we are all intending to leave beginning nex yr after bonus and let this dept collasped (la)! wan to see how they gonna survive with 4 staff tendering! *pissed* but i wonder if i can tahan until nex yr? cos i reali feel on the verge of tendering :( thats how bad it is. hubby was against the idea initially, but after he see this dept bullying and making use of us, he told me he's supportive of my decision if i reali wan to tender. sigh, i hope i can make myself stay till bonus.. tho its a very small sum (la) *cries*

hubby's outfield.. the only thg im lookin fwd to is my off day next 2 days :) hubby was given off, so i took leave too. hopefully this 2 days tho short, can make me smile back again. sigh! wanna watch the movie 'break-up'! hehe, tink its gonna be quite a nice show :) i reali nid a break, counting dwn to our bintan trip :) i miss you, my love.

-feeling pissed-

2006-08-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

Ray of Hopes :)

2006-08-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

monday blues? hee, not exactly cos my boss is on leave :) until next week, yay! =) short wk this wk, but a lot of things on my mind :/ sigh, the momentum to do my assignment is not here yet *worried* i dun hav the ling gan to write anything :(

did i mention colleague B has tendered her resignation? sigh, thats another cause for worry :/ boss been talkin to me recently, sigh i hope a replacement comes in fast, otherwise its really suffering here. put it in a nice way, my colleagues say "they tink highly of u mah..". well, more like dey dun hav a choice to ask me to help? *cries*

2 wkends before, had dinner @ Din Tai Fung.

awww Xiao Long Pau!! hehe.. *juicy*

hubby's fren happen to walk past and were luffing behind -.-" *hide face*

later at nite, we headed to tis new place (to me) called Farmart. how do u pronounce that? Far Mart? Farm Art? hehe.. its an eating place tho :) surprisingly crowded! lol cos its pretty ulu =p supposedly to wake up early to watch sunrise, but sleepyheads, we end up snoring away :p *tired*

we caught Tokyo Drift & Click over the last 2 wkends. nice! with this $8 ticket for Safra members, even better! hehe..

so last wkend, after 'trying to catch' the fireworks, we headed to MS Xin Wang Cafe (again, hehe) with chan & co for our late dinner *hungry* den quickly head back to zzzZZzz. after much figeting, we got up on a Sunday morning :)

set off time: 510am

venue: from CCK to ECP

arrival time: 550am

"i hope u know im willing to do anything for baby.. even thu i doze off a few times while driving back. sometimes my lazy bones get in the way!" -hubby.

"i thought it was only in tv shows that i see couples looking at sunrise. now i noe its not!" -my colleague.

after fulfilling our mission, we finally got to smell our bed @ 8am =p *zonked out*

hubby wen bk early to clear stuffs. sigh, he's been havin lotsa problems wif his boss lately. we haven been tokin much every nite due to his busy-ness. i tink both of us are really down on our luck @ work :( i feel reali upset, that things arent going well :/ hopefully the ray of hope.. will bring us more hope in life :) i need.. that additional strength.. till den..

-do you dunno how much you mean to me? you mean the world to me-

Lovely wkend with you :)

2006-07-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

the past wk was an extremely hectic wk at work. horrible shit. totally pissed off. my colleagues wen on MC and on leave, so i was practically covering 4 ppl's job. i was already not feelin well on Wed n my boy was not happy tt i din see a doc and instead wen to work :/ sigh, wad to do. if i reali din turn up for work, all of us will kena scolding. anyway de week's over. i hope colleague B gets her punishment tmr. apparently big boss has found out bout her countless MCs and ask me bout her. gave me a shock, cos u noe, wen big boss speaks to u, it is usually nothin good! lol. de verdict is tmr. im goin to speak to my immediate supervisor tmr too. colleague B is simply gettin her own way and im doin all the shit for her. *pissed*

my other colleagues offered their help. they saw me running here n thr, and its like wen i turn left.. someone fr de right wil cor me to do some stuff, lol. "jac i tink u can slim down a lot man! ive been seein you walkin here and there!" - one of dem told me. *faint* shit lar.

my boy couldnt book out on Sat. met dear Jo in the afternoon. we wen rd Chinatown lookin for beads! hehe. reali combed a lot of places, we were so tired! :/ headed to bugis thereafter, had some food @ Mos and gossiped, lol. it was so fun talkin! ok, more like gossiping, hehe. Jo and relatives were havin a get-together-dinner @ East Coast. was told to go, but i tout i shouldnt go lar. not very nice since my boy isnt there? i dun wan to be unexpected visitor! hehe.

my pretty pretty beads!

accompanied Jo to tk bus 12. wa lau, first time i tk tt bus, almost got lost! shit. lucky i caught a glimpse of Expo and so quickly alighted to meet my parents over there. lol. haven settled the new house renovation -.-" i dunno if im excited a not? lol.

we were kinda in a rush but quickly chop chop took some pics, hehe. first try:

second try, still blur:

ok, third try looks better, hehe:

Sunday, got up early to make breakfast for my precious. he picked me up @ Dover den headed to his place :) i guess we were both tired, fell asleep immediately :p woke up jus in time for lunch, togeda wif his mum :) ah.. so happy, his parents both strike 4D ah! and me - toto! hehe. i dun buy toto, this my first time ya - kena influenced by my colleagues, hehe. "aiya if i strike toto den i will quit here liao la.." - so they happily wen to buy, and ask me to buy too. anyway just $1 so why not ya? hehe, so happy! :) they say i got beginner's luck! hehe.. my boy's mum gonna sponsor us for the bintan trip, hehe :) *smiles* lookin fwd to it right now =) another 6 more weeks! *excited*

walked ard orchard, bugis and suntec. my boy got me a sunglasses, hehe, for bintan :):) tempted to buy lotsa stuff, but wanna save up for our trip expenses now :) dinner time, we wanted to try de Xin Wang Cafe @ Kovan. i rem seein it near Kovan MRT.. we sorta got a bit lost so i quickly called yijun, lol (thks gal!). we found de place, but ... long queue ah! thank god their service was pretty fast and my boy wasnt late to report bk :)

"im very tired.. sleepy sleepy.."

"why you keep taking pictures of me.."

"ok lar, take wif you, make you happy lar!" hehe.

wkends have been very short, wif my boy always havin to stay in. *boo hoo* things hav been goin pretty well, i hope we stay that way :) love you muchie :):)

love conquers all :)

2006-07-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

its only monday.. and im already like half dead :/ last week was a tiring work wk. sigh sigh, it'll b lidat for the nex 3 months i guess :(

anyway had cold war wif my colleague last wk. so shitty. tink bout it i dunno whether to laugh or wad. she's always missing in action, yet can still show her attitude. 3/4 of the time, she's watchin korean vcd. see, life is so unfair! crap~

i was tellin my other colleagues that we're goin to be loggerheads liao la. seriously, i dun like makin enemies wif ppl. but if things happen tat way, i hav no say bout it also but to let nature tk its course. so there was my other frens betting on "dun worry la, confirm chop guarantee she wil tok to u first one". and true as it is.. we spoke today. no, she din say sorry. it was bcos she needed my help in work thus she spoke to me. so realistic. i did help her, and she started being her 'old self' and guess wad, she start tellin me how bad this person is la.. wad she dun like la.. wad a biatch! crap~ there's reali a lot of things goin on in work right now, even my boss is suspecting her, questioning her countless MCs. seriously, she's really v lucky, always getting off the hook wifout any scolding. i hope she gets her punishment one day. everyone is working hard, except her. :(

anyway in the morn, i was like so sian, totally not in de mood for work. life for the nex half yr wld nt be that smooth anymore. feelin quite sad. den i started tinkin bout how i fall out wif my poly mates 3 yrs ago over some misunderstanding which i tout cld b solved amicably. but apparently, not. my boy msged me, guess he sensed my moodiness, and it jus daunt on me that "history seem to be repeating. after i had de misunderstanding wif xxx, he broke up wif me a few mths ltr. now im in cold war wif xxx, wad will happen nex? prolly few mths ltr we'll break up? its fated hur?" i msged my boy that. it sounds reali silly to tink of sucha thing, but wen u r down, ur mind works that wae.. *sigh*

as i was deep in thoughts.. my boy smsed me "whats going to happen nex is that your baby here will hug you, kiss you and make things wonderful for you..". even if it was just merely sweet talk, it did made me smile and the day got on quite well :) thank you precious. guess i was just too emotional @ work. sigh~

anyway supposedly hafta wait another wkend b4 my boy is free, but heng heng Sunday he was freed! hehe. we met for lunch, and he was late (again)! *faint* he tried to qiu qing, cos he was late cos.. he wen to get flowers! lol. i wonder wen did he became so romantic?? lol. it wasnt any birthday/ anniversary or wadsoever so curious me ask him :p he told me, "ah.. cos i dun spent much time wif u, and its been so long since we met! more importantly, it is a small gift for our 500th day last wk!" heh. maybe army has made him sweeter? hah i dunno.

in the car, i ask him wad is the significance of 12? he told me "love you". i was like "ah, then anyone can love me leh! must be i love you ma!" so that would be 512 stalks! he almost fainted.. hehe.. *joking*

see la, smile until eyes become even smaller liao :p

we headed to Expo in the evening and was caught in a very bad jam! sheesh~ should haf expected that :/ but de wait was worth cos we wan to see see cars! hehe.

see they even tink for the kids! hehe.. let them race race a bit first..hehe

Jackie Chan's innovation! nicee!

blackkkk! hehe... *pretty*

fierceee! hehe..

it was an enjoyable nite out :) tho short, but i was reali happy :) came home, and got a vase to put de flowers! tadah!

-love conquers all-

yay

2006-07-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

*yay* finally finished de last paper (temporary). in another 3 mths time, i'll b complaining of exams again, lol. bu zhi bu jue, already studyin+workin for 1 whole yr! its been tough.. really tough.. and definitely taxing on one's health. in another 5 months or so.. i'll hav graduated! hehe.. that is if all goes well la.. *cross finger*

took leave fr thurs till today to study *last min rev* receive news fr my colleague tt another of my colleague took MC on thurs and today. that kinda pissed both of us cos this colleague has no sense of responsibility at all. she always ask us to help her do tis do tat.. i helped her initially tinkin there's no wrong since we're jus helpin each other, but i later found out tat she is not one hu will b appreciative at all! she make use of ppl and jus simply wan to laze ard n still get $$.

we are a 3-way cover (like A covers B, B covers C, C covers A) so only one person can b on mc/ leave. of cuz if sway sway reali sick den bo bian la. but this colleague of mine always do it on purpose one! every wk she wil b on mc at least once! and de worse thing is sometimes she dun submit her mc! givin reasons like "she forget to bring la", "dunno whr she put la". wth lor.. she's been doin this for 6 yrs le! so its like on thurs and today, my poor colleague had to cover both of us :/ i felt reali bad cos she's pregnant too, and her own stuff to do is already a lot :(

my boy dun reali like de idea that im friends wif her :/ *sigh* makin frens is better than havin an enemy rite? after all, we're colleagues. but well, some ppl jus dun deserve gd treament. hmph~

im so glad im going back to work tmr! :) resting only a few days but i feel v restless le! work gives me live! heh :)

hmm.. my poor boy has been slogging ever since he commissioned. poor thing. things has not been gg gd for him. *sob* after havin to get confined wen de first batch of recruits came in, last fri, a new batch of recruits came in and he has to confine wif dem (again)!

den tis afternoon he called me, feelin quite sad. apparently his oc said he's been askin for "nites out" so now he dun allow him to drive in. wth~ using his authority in de wrong way! and and.. de funny thing is.. he doesnt hav any nites out at all leh! how can ground a person for 3 wks! stupid shit. sigh, kinda pissed after hearing it as well. doin all de shit and getting shitsssss..

he's sooOooooo busy.. we barely tok/ sms other than de usual "had ur lunch?", "im back home le". most of de days, he's busy till 1am.. -.- on n off in de noon he tries to call me, but its admist his work, so i dun wanna tok too long also, later he get scolded for that (who knows rite!):/ last nite, he only finished his stuff ard 230am! he was so shag, he intended to bathe but was too tired tt he fell aslp on de bed wif a towel wrap ard! *faint faint*

hopefully, his leave schedule dun get ruined otherwise our bintan trip in sep will also be ruined!

just finish slurping the last bit of ai xin tang (soup)! mummy cooked for me, my stomach was hurting cos of not havin dinner! :( dun belittle de soup, its really nutritious n yummy! hehe..

Saturday going on a hunt for beads accessories wif dear Jolyn! hehe.. *smiles*

take care dearest. it hurts to see you going thru all this. i'll be there for you whenever you need me :)

hehe.. the photo world

2006-07-06T11:55:00.000+08:00

this is so addictive! im doin this instead of studying! hehe.. decided to put it on friendster, looks not-so-cramp there. try it out guys! :)

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2006-07-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

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a short update

2006-07-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

a quick update before i get back to my books (oh yawn..)

just finish one paper yest, having another one nex wk. ah faint~ last last wkend (i tink) we were at Suntec, den spotted this car exhibition thingy. heh..

yeah, the boy and his craze for cars, lol.

last wkend, we tried the buffet @ Holiday Inn Park! hmm well, my boy and i agreed that de food is not as good as Merchant Court, but the durian there is yummy! hehe..

supposedly wanting so much to watch the match between England vs Portugal. wen round finding a gd location, but as expected, all packed/ reserved ah! *sadded* we bought Portugal and i was so excited in watchin, but argh nvm la.. in de end dey draw and so we lost! *double sob*

mou and co decided to head dwn to Holland V and alamak super unlucky can, our car died on us! *omg* the battery wen flat, so we couldnt lock the car. wad a day manz! :/ so we ended up home sweet home, off to slp! lol.. *huggies*

kinda tiring wkend but love the company :)

thesmileinourhearts :):) love u!

YAY soccer tonite! *smiles*

Heaven Knows

2006-06-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

the constant irritating shit i get fr that colleague of mine. its driving me crazy.

i miss him. tho he has 'graduated', he's gettin even more busy. even at nite, we barely tok long. am i suppose to be happy or sad? i longed for him esp times wen im pretty upset bout work. i noe he hasnt much time for me and its not right for me to demand so much time fr him.

sometimes, i ask myself if this r/s is going anywhere? de future seems so bleak, wif de fact that he's in army. but i cant bear to let him go, cant bear to giv up tis r/s. i hate to see him uphappy bcos im not happy. i ask myself if we being together makes him happy? if it does bring him happiness? i cant find an answer myself. i hope to hear the answer from him. :/ we have plans, yet i dunno why at times i still feel de insecurity. crap.

i dunno why im feelin so depressed today. all i hope is to be with you, in your arms again. Our feelings are true, if we are meant to be together, nothing will sets us apart.. *the promise to go thru thick and thin still remains, my precious*

Heaven Knows - by Rick Price

He's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
He's everywhere I go
He's all I know

Though he's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now he's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin me
That if you really love him
You've gotta set him free
And if he returns in kind
I'll know he's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair'
Cause wide awake or
Dreaming
I know he's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows
Heaven knows.....2x

very long update

2006-06-15T19:29:00.000+08:00

(a huge update wif many pics)

Past few weeks have been busy, trying to finish up on projects. I must say im really glad I changed group and found much much nicer pple to work with. *smiles* they are really cooperative and always so enthu into meeting up. Seeing them wanting to finish the project fast also gave me more motivation :) the endless meeting at Food Courts, Burger King joints, Hans cafe, McDonalds (thx to McDonalds, we managed to charge the laptop and finish our report) finally came to an end and we officially submitted our project last Monday – yay! Oh well, it also means that exams are coming, lol. Reali sian half leh. :/

*thank you everyone! & good luck for de upcoming exams! :):)

Chilled out a number of times wif Chan & co too at the infamous Little Bali and Rochester Park. Heard good reviews on FP forum about those 2 places, hence the visit. Hee. Little Bali was pretty out of the way if u dun drive but unique place, they designed the place such that u feel as if you r in Bali, heh. Cool concept hur? But a bit deceiving? Hah.. Rochester Park is more convenient tho =)

-at Bugis Sakae before meeting up wif Chan n co- (he is proud of his new specs! boohoo)

-at Little Bali-

-at East Coast one of de Sundays-

-he made me do de same pose-

-he was more interested in whether his specs changed colour- (LOL)

wen bowling wif my boy's cousins too. crap, i've lost touch wif bowling, always kena de drain, super sian & paiseh. boohoo. so i asked my boy to help me bowl after that, hehe. was at Katong Bowling Centre till 8+pm before we headed for a late dinner, at Sakae Sushi (as always) den send dem home! haha~

-trying to have some style, haha-

-us waiting for our turn-

-wilson and jo-

in conjunction wif our monthly anni, supposed to go Sentosa for picnic but was too rushed, so we cooked at home instead :) one smashed egg wif mayo and de other fried egg, hehe. i dun eat mayo, so he insisted he shld fry one! tadah~

Work wise, it was kinda horrible last week. Colleagues been taking MC and urgent leave la etc, super fed up. I was running around like a crazy woman cos I have to cover their work. Reali super sian. but was it a blessing in disguise? my colleague's immediate supervisor told my colleague 'I am really very happy wif what she helped me last week. She is very nice and her working attitude is good. Can I request for her to assist me instead of ***?'

wen I heard that last sentence, my immediate reaction was 'erh, thanks for the compliment but can I say no thanks?' -in deep shit- i reali dun wan to b under her. I heard rumours bout that supervisor being very bad tempered and temperamental. She will shout at u for no reason. That's my fear. But I have no say :( will see wad happens in the coming months.. *cries*

Oh yes, 2nd June marks the day my dear brother got enlisted too. Boohoo~ hopefully he lose more weight! Hehe cos he’s in the obese sector *grin* JIAYOU! =) -miss your presence at home- *hugs*

8th June, the PIGS got together full attendance! heh. wif everyone so busy studyin & workin, its a miracle all were present on that day! haha. Sakae Sushi forever so crowded, we waited for an hour -.-" left ard 10 and drove (7 pple squeeze!)to Wine Bar @ Damsey Rd! kinda secluded place, but dun look dwn on it, it was 3/4 full on a Thursday! we got ourselves a table and ordered wine + cheese platter *yum yum* will miss you all PIGS again! reali happy to see all of u :)

-at Wheelock's Sakae-

-at Wine Bar-

10th June was a memorable day for my boy as he officially commissions! From the first day he was posted to OCS, I started my MSN nick '38 weeks and counting down' then to '10 weeks and counting down'and finally to 'just 1 more week!'. The parade was an eye-opener, thankfully it didn't rained during their parade. It lasted till about 7 before we proceeded to the Dining Hall for dinner. As usual, the food took long to come :/ *hungry*

-tadah! spotted u, hehe- they were marching upwards. i searched high n low, left n right, heng ah, still in time, hee.

-putting the empaulette on for him-

-my boy's dad took this for us :)-

-wif his dear parents-

-secondary sch frenz aka the Amenz- i thought this was a nice colour combi they blend well, hehe :)

-our poly frenz-

-wif kelvin and gf-

-OCS army frenz-

Supposedly going to Chang Hong's b/day after that, but my boy was down wif fever and sore throat, thus we din turn up :/ drove home and immediately to dreamland for him. Lol.. I was hungry so makan and watch tv while he sleep, lol. That nite I felt like I was taking care of my baby, lol. Patted him to bed and woke up every 2 hrs to make sure he's fever is down. We got up on a Sunday morn, he felt a bit better so we headed to Bukit Timah for breakfast. Wanted to have prawn noodles, but the stall was closed, boohoo~ we wen back to slp after breakfast as his fever came back -.-"

wen out in the evening to his grandma house as his cousins from Australia came over for a short visit. So paiseh, cos its de first time I met his paternal grandma, hee :p heng they are all very nice and friendly. We had dinner at some seafood restaurant @ Clementi before the young n de old parted. Before we left, my boy's grandma gave me a red packet, and ask me to come more often, super paiseh :P

We drove his cousins to the Boat Quay area, took some pics, and had some coffee over @ TCC before we send them back to Holiday Inn Hotel. It was a nice get-together, dunno wen they will be coming to Sg again. Anyway, wish them Bon Voyage! *smiles*

Boo. Gonna miss my boy again. the platoon he's handling are new recruits, and he has to suffer wif dem -> confined together for 2 weeks! *faint* how can lidat! super sad :/ im like now looking forward to the new recruit's POP cos that's wen my boy will have some off day too. Next Feb, he will be bringing dem to India! Faint ah. Sigh sigh~ hope things will be shun shun li li for him =)

16/6/06: my boy's Commissioning Ball @ Conrad Hotel. tiring day as he only booked out in de afternoon. had lunch at my plc den he wen for short shoppin wif his mum while i wen to do my make up & hair :) reached Conrad pretty early, so we took a few pics :)

-wilson, the pianist, hehe-

-love at first sight wif de lightings, hehe-

-pictures together-

de door only opened ard 730? so during that 1.5 hr 'free time', they had 'free stations'. we took this couple photo thingy and also sat down for de lady to drew this!

the lady artist was telling my boy "her smile is so pretty, she look like ms universe, can i put a tiara on her head?" and my boy actually replied "no u cant tell her that, she will fly up to de sky" what the.. -.-

the lady continued entertaining us saying "if she fly up, you will also fly up wad". and that boy said "no, i will wait for her to come down" c..r..a..p.. -.-

-the photo thingy we took-

-the theme, Genesis, which means the beginning of something :) (in this context, referrin to the beginning of them becoming official SIRS)-

-the 2 MCs-

-playing one of de team game-

-at the dinner-

-one of de nicer pic: kun, don and wil-

den.. the embarassing moment arrived! *hide face*

the guys wen up first. den de MCs started askin each of dem who they are bringing up to de stage wif dem. the other 3 said 'my date, my girlfriend'. that boy said thru the mike, 'im bringing my wife'... *touched, speechless, stunned, i tried hiding my face while walking up to de stage wif all de screams, whistles, shouts etc*

-up on de stage, lookin at each other, stunned-

"what to do? what to dance? how how?"

-SHOCKED. oh no oh no-

-"tongue sticked out": this time die liao lah..-

-why tis expression? there were 4 couples, each will dance either chinese/ english/ malay/ hindu dance and den? we kena de hindu one ah! audience fault! boohoo-

so malu can! :p everyone was laughing (including us!) i nvr felt so nervous before, lol.. kun videoed down the whole dance, thanks man :) wanted to post it up here thru you-tube, but on 2nd thoughts, better not lah. heh. *a moment to remember*

-last but not least, our table 7 :)-

din stayed long after de whole event was over as my boy hafta report in tmr. boohoo. a tired day indeed, but a happy one. i hope their journey of becoming PCs will all be a smooth smooth one. Congrats to all! =)

oh yea, World Cup has arrived! hehe so excited! =p bought a few bets every now and then, so far so good, hehe. thankfully my colleagues interested also! *grin* wanted to buy Argentina today, but no time so couldnt buy lah! sad leh.

Jolyn: remember ah, de next time i see you, u muz be smiling already okie? put the past behind you, be the pretty pretty gal again :):)

*To get the photos (of any u'll wan), visit here!

-dreaming-

2006-05-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

ah did you all watched "xuan hao jiu jie hun?" aka choose properly den get married, lol, hosted by michelle and quan yifeng. my colleagues and i were talkin bout how romantic the whole plan was.. it reali was, in my pt of view. it was touching and loving and i hope there'll be more happy couples in bliss :) the tears were tears of joy. it was heart-warming watching it as i imagine myself in quan yifeng's position, how wld i be feelin? i love surprises, but a surprise marriage is kinda scary :/ for marriage, i tink it'll be good to make plans & decisions togeda. afterall, thats wad a husband and wife shld b doin ya?

marriage is a commitment, a lifetime decision, a journey taken by 2 parties hu hav committed n promised themselves to go thru thick n thin togeda, to share both happiness and sorrow :)

i've never reali tell you verbally how important you were to me. i dunno if the things i did have ever showed you de love i have for you. but i wan you to noe, i cherish you and de love we both hav. it is still beating like de first day we officially became a couple :) and it always will :)

[hopefully one day wen you decide to read this blog again, you'll noe how my heart feels, how my heart bleeds whenever we have cold war, how my heart cries out loud for you, how my heart beats for your company, and how my heart misses you, my dearest]

i really really wish we'll be able to go for a short trip soon.. *dreaming*

2006-05-20T09:12:00.000+08:00

-this week made me feel the importance of good health-

To JS: thanks for the concern. i dunno wad im suppose to do but i'm sorry for the answer i gave you. frens we will be forever. you'll find the right one soon and i'll be reali happy for you:)

-i miss my boy-

the hurt..

2006-05-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

Why does it have to hurt inside?
Why do I have to cry each night?
I think I have to walk on by...
Cuz I'm starting to lose my sight...

What is it that changed your mind?
Who is it that keeps you blind?
Why did you change so fast?
Did you really have to leave me behind?

I start to think about all we had
And how it turned this way...
I guess I'll have to leave your side,
And turn my face away...

Although my soul will die...
Although my heart will cry...
I've got nothing else to do,
I'm hurt deep, deep inside

Tho I'll leave your side,
You'll be always on my mind...
My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
The love that keeps me alive...
You're the one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts very much inside...

the long weekend

2006-05-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

Vesak Day was spent.. celebrating my boy's grandaunt birthday! :) the whole fam planned it to be a surprise, telling her tt its only a normal gathering. the early peeps wen as early as 10am! wah.

i left home noon time. made a trip down to Joo Chiat to get the famous Puteri Mas durian puff! recommended by makansutra! so happy wen i found the place last time! hehe. the durian is really yummy! *yum yum*

den headed to my boy's granny place where they had the 'gathering'. thanks for keepin me company Jo! hehe. we gambled like the whole afternoon and even at nite? lol. i lost money lar :( boohoo. it was fun tho..hehe.

dinner was yummy too! (i sound like some yao gui, lol) my boy miss out on all these good food, hee. it was a good gathering cum birthday celebration. his uncles + aunties are all very nice and i feel really happy :) a thought jus came to my mind.. wad if we arent fated to be wif each other and dun end up togeda in future? i'll really miss all his cousins+relatives.. *cries*

ard 8, i left for short while to Joyce's birthday at Cote Dazur :) Happy 21st birthday babe! thanks for accompanying again gal :) reali appreciate it lots. we wen mad taking photos again, hehe. Claire & Candice left early, so din manage to tk any pics wif dem :/

i like this pic! so sweet sweet rite! hehe.. *smiles*

returned back to my boy's granny place after tt and.. played mahjong! lol. cny didnt play so now muz play? lol. my boy's mum came after work and we stayed all the way till 2am? drove to the airport thereafter to pick my boy up. his flight - 3am *yawn* was pretty tired actually :p had late supper as his mum was hungry, b4 we headed home.

thanks for the gifts you bought dear :)

faint, he lost so much weight! *sayang* we woke up on Saturday jus for lunch, den wen back to dreamland! only woke up at 5pm -.-" *shiok*

my boy wanted to hav Crystal Jade for dinner. saw my mum's sms that she's received her present, hehe. ordered flowers + gift set for her for Mother's Day. had them delivered on Sat as Sun was unavailable. den got to noe that they're also heading to PS's Crystal Jade! *faint* so we had dinner togeda in the end, hehe:) wif my granny too :):)

my boy sent granny home while my parents continued patoh-ing :P

Sunday.. din do much except to watch Poseidon @ Suntec. nice! hehe. but the ending quite sad :/ bumped into my parents there too! lol..

At Suntec's Sky Garden:
i tink this pose is so cute! hehe..

@ Sky Garden last yr:

1 year later.. 14/5/06:

i hope there's endless years for us.. *deep in thoughts*

Happy 25th anniversary Mum & Dad!

thats the flowers+gift set i gave my mama, hehe :p

Wishing them loving always! =)

-wish you were right here supporting me-

the blog hopper

2006-05-04T19:55:00.000+08:00

i was blog hopping.. Lynette's bloggie entry came as a shock to me. a very near-to-perfect couple decided to become frens. they appeared as a role model to me. a couple hu does hav quarrels but always solve it amicably and u noe the "live happily ever after" sweet sweet couple kinda thing. and wen i read her blog, i felt a lot of emotions myself, as well as for her. her words said so much bout her heart, said so much bout her feelings. and as i read it, i dunno to be happy for her :/ after all, she was de one hu made de decision. and no..they din had a huge fight or whatsoever.. apparently, she's going overseas :(

its been going 3 yrs since i knew her :) she was de one hu intro-ed me the Mediacorp job =) she was also the one hu taught me "dun find love, let love find u".. and.. funnily, we've not met at all! lol. i hope wadever route u choose, success n happiness will be wif u, Lynette :)

den i read Qiwen's blog, and saw photos of her bro - ya him. memories of the past came into me. and fear sets in. no one expected him to be such a person, or at least, i din expect him to do such things. i feel sad and hurt tinkin bout the nasty things he did, bout the sweet little talks he always sae, jus to cover up his lies and actions he did behind my back. i feel de phobia coming back to me.

i hate myself for not bein able to control how i feel. wen such phobia sets in, my boy doesnt like it. ok who in the right mind will like it.. but ah im aldy tryin not to let de past affect me. sigh :/

oh well, not all r/s will turn out bad hur? *self-console* on a happier note, my cousin's gettin married tmr! hehe, so happy for her. .her big big day wor! =) i hav so many cousins gettin married tis month and even nex yr! *smiles* on leave tmr, goin to be the bridesmaid, hehe, so long wkend for me! :) de other time while havin dinner @ Sakae, my boy and i were tokin bout "sabo-ing the bridegroom!". so i asked him, nex time if one of the challenge is to eat lotsa wasabi, den how? u will eat a not? guess wad that silly boy said?

"heh. i wun eat! cos i noe in the end u'll still marry me!" wad the.. -.-"

(my aunt jus msg me to ask wad kind of challenge is good for the bridegroom tmr. so i told her: "make him eat sth he hate!" die la, they are preparing wasabi salad for him now! omg, not my fault ok! hehe)

ever since he wen overseas, every call from him was so precious to me..

her: thanks for callin dear, great to hear ur voice :)
him: my love, its great to hear your voice too.. makes me miss u so much.. makes me reflect and know i wanna marry u.. oh baby, im dreamin of my baby in her wedding dress, with me waiting to unveil and kiss u! love u sugar..

(lol he's been day dreaming too much! lol.. i hope he doesnt miss me only wen we dun see each other for so long..)

my boy is out in the greens :/ haven heard fr him since Tues.. *sob* before he wen outfield, he choose not to bathe so he has time to call me, hehe.

him: baobei, call you before i leave..
her: orh, u free now ah?
him: no la. the rest bathing.. i nvr bathe to cor u lor.. hehe aint i good?
her: *smiles* really ah? hehe.
him: but 4 yrs later i wun cor u le leh..
her: huh.. how come..?
him: hehe cos we'll b married in 4 yrs time! you'll be living wif me le ma!
her: muahah...you ah.. so fast meh? u say one ah!
him: hehe i try lor..

see la, his mouth so sweet rite! lol. hopefully he wun be like the previous one.. sweet talk jus to cover his lies and actions :/

u mite not read tis, but i miss you baby. another 8 more days to go.. *cries* i told you i'll wait for you, and i really really mean it.

there's so many things that can mean so much more than i can tell,
baby, i remember the day i knew you and the day i fell for you.
if there was ever one thing in my life i was certain of,
it would be you - the man i truly love, i love you baby.

the farewell :(

2006-04-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

been awhile since i came here to update. been kinda busy on hand recently.

what has been happening (in random order):

-my boy couldnt book out the wkend b4 he wen overseas

-i am moving house

-accompanied my parents to see see, aim aim furniture

-watchin korean shows (only 1 tho. im a slow tortoise, ha)

-enjoying the post-exam period before another hurdle comes along

-in the midst of setting up a biz: Love Your Nails!

-lookin ard for nice dresses to attend my cousin's wedding

-did a hair change (it looks horrible, i tink i hav the tom-boy look now, crap)

-gave myself a break fr work to accompany my boy on Thurs

-had a sumptuous yet saddening dinner @ Sakae with my boy before we parted

-sent my boy to the airport

-tryin to be a good gal by coming home straight after work (been giving a miss to all the cafe chilling!)

-a new bigger bed for us! (so that i dun hav to get pushed one side everytime *grin*)

-the bigger tv from the spare room has been moved to our room! *yay*

-waiting for my boy's call every nite (oh well, but he'll be outfield most of the times) thailand's timing is 1hr slower than Singapore!

-on a sway day, my shoe got stepped by someone in the train and it got stucked in the hole (aiya hard to describe, its jus the one between the floor and the train ar), so the slips of my shoe broke off and i ended up limping to URS buying a new pair of shoe. (money fly away again! sob)

-tryin to accomplish some of my sch assignments (its killing me) another half a yr more to go.. sigh.

-most of my time, as much as i wan to divert my attention, i tink i miss & think of him more. *cries* i cant wait for ur return. i cant wait to be in in ur arms again. i really really miss you.

him: take good care of urself dear.
her: i will. you muz come back hor. u dun come back, den no one wan me liao :/
him: i will definitely come back cos if i dun come back, my girl will be snatched away by other guys!
her: *smiles* im yours. hav a good trip. love u.

the long weekend

2006-04-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

yay, exams over!hehe:P at least for now..i've gotta rest a bit :)

i gave myself a break by meeting my boy on Friday, Good Friday, hehe. studied in the morn, den waited for him to cor me once he's out. sucha sleepy pig, he cld book out aldy, but doze off (for very long!) till the afternoon! it made matter worse wen it started pouring hur? lol.. *nice weather to zzz* i called him upteem times b4 he finally answered, lol...*faint* i tink he slept a total of 16 hrs! :p

the plan to had breakfast, became not a lunch, but high tea! muahah~ cos it was aldy 3-4 wen we met :) headed to Bugis' Sakae Sushi *yum yum* sucha long time since we had Sakae! hehe. no plans in mind, happen to hav an impromptu dinner wif his fam & relatives. headed to Far East Square for dinner :):) we were quite full in fact (cos of the late lunch, lol) but still, de dinner was gr8. i love the crayfish! hehe..

after tt sumptuous dinner, we walked ard Tanjong Pagar cum Amoy St area to scout.. cos they're intending to do their own biz! there was an area that was selling/renting, and they were discussing bout the biz etc. how cool! hehe. i hope it works out :):)

sent my boy's mum & his aunt home, den we headed to Holland V to meet Chan & co @ Essential Brew. 2nd time i've been thr, but nothin fancy me yet :) i tink the other coffee joints r a tad better, hmm. anyway, thanks Crane for giving me the free VIP membership! *appreciated* :) it was a fun nite out, chilling there wif the same cranky gang of guys, lol. the stories of their sec sch happenings were ultra hilarious. it made me tink of the stupid times & acts i encountered in sec sch days too. lol.. funny wen u tink bout it now. how we've grown up hur? *smiles*

we left the place ard 1, and wen driving ard. shiok! lol. feelin the cool breeze, machiam im in malaysia! it always giv me the cameron-highlands feeling, wahaha. home sweet home ard3, dead beat aldy.. *tired*

we woke up the nex day feelin gr8, cos its only Saturday! hehe..din do much cos pretty broke. sigh, tok bout money will only shang gan qing! *sob* jus hope things wil get better..sigh. we walked ard aimlessly, wen to Eunos to see my new hse, then to the Car Mart and finally to Turf City - all to see cars, lol.

dinner was late as my boy was pretty full fr his McDonalds meal at 5pm! *faint* we makan @ Suntec's Joaquim Steamboat Buffet! the place where i've always wish to go..hehe. indeed, the food's good! *yum yum* we ate continously, and left with a bloated stomach! lol. i wan to go back there again, hehe :P

wen home earlier than usual tt day cos my boy had to wake up early on Sunday. my boy surfed the net, while i entertained myself wif.. Tom & Jerry Cartoon! heheheh.. it made my day :) i laughed and laughed and laughed. we watched togeda thereafter before going into dreamland:) hehe.. *grin*

Sunday, my boy wen for his soccer match. wanted to head to the library, but it only open the earliest @ 10am. so gave up the idea, and stayed back to slp, lol. only woke up @ 1130 wen he called me :/ hehe. woke up to study thereafter :) waited for him to get home b4 we wen for lunch! *hungry*

time past pretty fast as usual. we had a short walk @ Raffles City b4 bidding goodbye. it was a treasured gr8 long weekend :) wen will i get to enjoy 3 days wif u again? *ponders*

exam finally ended today. seriously, cant wait to get back to work tmr :) i need to work to feel alive, lol. wkend pls come quick :)

its only past one day, but i miss u so :) you're leaving, i'll miss u even so :) my heart's still wif u, precious :) i love you, baby :)

the tiring week

2006-04-10T10:32:00.000+08:00

i feel as if im gonna flunk my papers nex wk :/ i cant seem to be able to study intensively.. *sigh* i wonder what am i going to tell my parents if i fail my paper, sob.

last wk was a tiring week.. trying to study+work+go out = tired! wkend was spent celebrating Ken's 22nd Birthday @ PS's Cafe Cartel :) time flies seriously, just last yr, we celebrated it @ Heeren's Sakae Sushi, now its already past 1 yr! =p how fast we grow! LOL...

had late supper+games @ Settler's Cafe wif my boy's cousins :)we waited pretty long despite our reservations! bad service, boohoo. we played Game of Life & jenga over the 2 hrs. tired, but enjoyable! hehe, all the laughs and screams, lol..

my boy sent them home, before we head home :) din do much on Sunday as we were both tired :/ jus enjoyed each other's company :)

he wen outfield the whole wk, just got back :) *i miss u* its the upcoming long wkend..but i've exams to worry bout, sigh~

*i hope you not only miss me when you're away, but that i am on ya mind every min every second :)its been many lonely nights without u. you're always in my thoughts :) i love u dearly =D*

Happy sweet one month Jolyn & Don :):):) & Congrats Sharrel in ya new r/s! hehe "dun find love, let love find you" rite? *grin* glad you're receiving the happiness of love now :):):)

tears in heaven

2006-04-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

-tears in heaven-

my precious

2006-04-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

back from a weekend i really treasure. *i miss u so much dearie*

Friday - i couldnt wait. the whole wk was a hell lot for me at work. after the Tuesday incident, another happen on Wednesday. bloody hell. sigh. met June after work to unwind. i was complaining n whining all the way. damn. nvm, i bought loads of stuff to relief stress! wahahah, wad an excuse! lol~

afterwhich i waited for my boy. tout they were preparing to book out already, but oops wrong info. :p *faint* waited for 2 hrs n took the last train home, lol. super tired after all the wait. worse, my boy's phone was off all the way! the moment i step into my hse, he called me! -.-" really no fate sia.

he came to pick me up afterwhich. so late by den, we had a quick supper then headed back to zzz :P after all the heat at work, tis wk was horribly tired :/ my boy had a bad week too, sigh, *hugs*

Saturday was short, making me treasure it even more :) watched Failure to Launch in the afternoon and had a short walk. my boy send me off then headed to 2 of his fren's birthday party =) wen shopping wif peiling @ Bugis thereafter *smiles* great time shopping n chilling out :)

my boy picked me up ard 1am den we head home :) *tight hug* Sunday - ordered kfc for lunch! hehe, my boy's craving, lol :) we decided to watch Ice Age thereafter, hehe. nice funny lame lame show! hehe. time pass pretty fast, my boy became so emotional again :/

him: most likely, i wun be able to come out for 2 wkends.
her: its ok, i understand.
him: but im worried bout u..
her: huh, worried bout? im still alive, dun worry! *tries to smile*
him: u muz take care of urself ok..
her: smile dear, dun worry :)
him: i cannot come out to see u, but u muz wait for me hor!
her: *smiles* no worries, i told u, we'll go thru thick n thin togeda rite?
him: dear i'll be missing u..
her: i'll miss u too. the more u say, the more sad i feel, dun say le lar, u see u makin me cry *tears*
him: what if i cry first..

-both him and her had tears-

before bidding goodbye:

him: one day if i win a million dollars.. guess wad is the first thg i'll do?
her: eh i dunno.. *first thought was to buy sth for his car, lol*
him: the first thg i'll do, is to marry u!
her: hehe really ar..? *smiles happily*

-life has been tough for both of us. seeing u so emotional n demoralise at times, i really feel helpless, noeing there's nothin much i can help u wif except to be by ur side. i jus wan to let u noe, no matter wad happens, u hav me who'll go thru thick n thin wif u :) its a promise, a lifetime promise we made to each other :) it was a pure simple conversation, but there's a smile in my heart, cos im happy noeing tt im part of ur life =) i love u, my precious one, the only one, dun give up on urself, i'll always be cheering for u :)-

the sad tuesday

2006-03-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

it was a horrible Tuesday for me.

i get accused everytime for things i did not do/ not within my control. today tt arrogant guy flare up n scolded me like there's no tmr. he assumed tt i did not cor to check (wen i did) and assumed tt everythg i said to him were not correct information. wth.

because of all de emotions bottled up in me, i brokedown unexpectedly. i cried in front of my colleagues. who cares bout face at tt pt in time. i didnt ask my tears to flow, it jus did uncontrollably. it jus reminded me of the times at scb, hell experience equivalent. i tink i shocked everyone wif my tears. i felt so disgraceful. i cant even stand up for myself. no matter how angry i am, i cant possibly insist tt im right? cos tt guy is an ultra ego guy, and he is the one who writes my appraisal. how?! i dun wan to b backlisted like one of my colleague :/

exams are coming. i studied halfway, and just cried. im not sad bcos of exams, its the stress inside me. monday while tokin to my boy, him askin me how am i, i just brokedown and cry again. am i speechless or am i jus feelin lost? i dunno. the fear of failing exams, not doing well, its frightening me i guess.

one nite overheard wad my mum said, it sorta jus demoralise me (again). she told my sis tt she's waitin for her to sponsor her to xxx country for holiday. she prolly tout she cant rely on this spendthrift daughter of hers. i felt v unappreciated. no matter wad i do, it doesnt pls her. the heart hurts. i dun hav to save for her trip anymore.

at times, sucidal thoughts come into my mind. i dun seem to satisfy anyone, no one seems happy wif me. the worst happens wen even my boy isnt happy wif me. it makes me feel as if the whole world are filled wif aliens and im all alone to cope wif all this shits. i hate myself.

i try to forgive n forget. but wenever such unfair treatment comes along, it makes me doubt my presence at home. wake up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, study, sleep. the only consolation factor is prolly stayin over at my boy's plc over de wkend. at least i dun hav to face home 7 days a wk.

how well do they know their daughter? *cries*

-I miss you very much dear. Take care while you're outfield.. *Lost in thoughts*-

2006-03-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

tis wk pass pretty fast i tink? with my boy being so busy in camp, and me being busy wif my sch stuff, time reali flies. its been a tiring wk for my boy, slpin less than 3 hrs a day! *faint* one of de days, he told me to wake him up at 3.45 am if i cld wake up! omg. i practically din slp de whole nite, fearin i wun b able to wake him up on time :/ his buddy is on MC thus no one to cor him man. as u noe, he's a sleepy pig! hehehe.. *jokes*

nth impt to announce.. but stil.. ahem.. im officially 21! hehehe.. havin mixed feelings tho. b4 i reached 21, always felt happy wenever i cel my b/day, cos im reachin adulthood soon! but now tt im 21, i feel ultra old! hahaha..and more responsibilities surfacing!

ok lar, dun tink too much for now =p met June and Angeline babe over the wk too. thanks for the dinner and gift :) really really very happy! *smiles* it was a good time catching wif 2 of them! its been how long since i met Angeline babe? 9 mths! LOL..frenship is not measured by distance or time yea? feelin happy for her too. she's going to Taiwan wif her boy in June after their exams! hehe *sweet sweet sweet*

thats June @ NYDC:

hehe:

Friday nite, my boy tried giving me a surprise, but it failed! lol.. he told me he couldnt book out, so cld only wish me Happy Birthday on the fone (which i was ok wif in fact). den i heard like those wind blowing while tokin to him, casually i ask him lar, where u now? he still wanna kp a secret and say he's in bunk, n tt his place v windy! LOL..

being the nice me, i didnt spoil his surprise ok! yeah he ended up appearing at the lobby of my plc and wish me happy Birthday :) hehehe. *smiles* it was a short one as it was late, but im really happy for tt. *thank u so much*

Saturday was erh... horrible to wake him up! wahahaha.. he took 3 hours to wake up manz! imagine i hang down de fone after him tellin me he's going to wash up aldy, den half an hr later, i realised he wen bk to slp! lol.. *ah bish*

my boy drove down to Wheelock and we had lunch @ Big O :) it was a simple Saturday, no specific celebration, but it was memorable :) watched Date Movie @ MS den did a bit of shopping! hehe, received my variable bonus liao =p come dinner time, we settled our hungry stomachs @ Wisma's Ding Tai Fung! *yummy* loves the xiao long bao so muchie!

hehehe~ our legs hurt quite a bit wif all the walkin in de noon, so we decided to not watch our 2nd movie. another day perhaps :) my boy drove to Kent Ridge Park thereafter to romantic-romantic, LOL! nice cosy place =) heh.

the later part of the nite was spent supper-ing wif ah mou n piggy :) had de usual prata and wen driving ard lookin at big houses n beautiful cars! =p so shiok! lol. superb tired de moment we got home. check my mail for any sch updates, den off we wen to dreamland. my boy told me he's so tired he dun even feel like bathing! lol.

*tired tired tired* got up ard 11 on Sunday. back hurts! did some misc stuff, lazed ard, feelin so lazy! lol. we wen out late noon, back to the house we viewed last nite! it was too dark last nite, so wen again to check it out! muahahah~ had dinner @ PS's foodcourt. my boy n i were aiming to eat de same food! *corny* i told him, b4 we left hse, i aldy had in mind eating xxx. den at the carpark he told me "hey later we go eat xxx la?" heh, the telepathy still works! LOL.

very tired back home. lotsa things to do in fact but no motivation :/ sigh, hopeless me! my boy's gonna be very busy till mid may, sob! expecting some wkends to be burnt liao, hugs. we're gonna get new couple specs next month! wahahha. not exactly 'couple specs' but rather the same outlook? aiyah, dunno how to describe, but liao den show! hehehe... *excited*

its gonna be another hell wk of work! anyway, wishes for the 2 couples hu just got together! heh. sweet sweet sweet :):):) enjoy the joy love can bring u! *smiles*

bah, my com has officially died. totally cant work, sad.i am so dead wif all my assignment deadline. sigh sigh...sad :/

MIA!

heh birthday pictures :)

2006-03-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

okie im back :) hehe. thank u all for coming to my 21st birthday party =) the pictures expresses all joy yah? hehe.

oh yea, i finally hav a brand new scanner, so tadah!the love message tt appeared on New Paper on Valentines Day! hehe, so happy to see it =)

heh..with the balloons my boy bought :) my fav pooh bear! hehe

the outlook of the chalet:

with jinwei and ah mou :)

with leng leng, brenda, jolin & janis :)

with my parents :)

with claire and aloy :)

with yao kun and meijun :)

with farhan, jeff and christian :)

with ah chan and peg :)

with joyce, cj, lihe and ro :)

with jolyn and don :)

with peiling and candy :)

with the guys hu came so late! hehe :P

hehe a picture of fun laughter n joy :P

hehe the key tiramisu birthday cake. my boy melted my heart wen he chose to play "Tong Hua" before the birthday song was sang :P it was a song tt signify our love, he told me "its ok if they dunno wad it means, as long as u noe, its for u" *melt melt melt* LOL.. touched but i control, cannot cry! too many ppl liao! *grin*

-ok i lazy to post the rest taken togeda wif de bdae cake liao-

Photos of my 21st birthday can be taken @:

http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/jacpiggie/my_photos

Cheers~

thank you everyone, for ur gifts, and most imptly ur presence :) really appreciate it a lot :) thank u mum n dad, n my boy too, for helping out in everythg to make sure all goes well :) *smiles*

-ah, my speaker suddenly choose to have sound today! lol.. its been so muted for a few mths n i couldnt find out wads wrong wif it. but today it finally worked! can play "tong hua" le! muahahah-

the updated one :)

2006-03-05T10:31:00.000+08:00

(written @ work again, hee)

Gawd..my body aches.. I need a massage..! lol.. been feelin very lethargic these weeks. Going for lectures, rushing out assignments blah blah. Its reali torturing on my health! Days wen I hav lectures, by the time I get home its already 11+! And I actually 'took a rest' during lectures, lol. Too tired, so I doze off for awhile..hehe.

Tis term is really bad. I really cant understand wad the lecturer is saying! Save me. He toks like a bullet train, I cld only catch like 50%? Hai. My fren feedback tt to him, askin him to slow down, guess wad he said? 'oh that is not possible. Askin me to slow down is like askin me to stand wif one leg'. Wa lau,.. ok lor. His lessons are also very draggy.. sigh sigh.

These tiredness have made me lose some of my memory. Brain cells are dying.. seriously cant recall wad I’ve been doin lately. Using the pictures I took to recap now..

Taking wif de beautiful flowers my boy gave me for V-day:

Bah. He was late, and I cld feel de unhappiness in me. Msged him..and he stil replied me in a very nice manner = very unlike him! So wen I finally met up wif him, he took out de bouquet of flowers wif de cute little bear that goes “'mmwahhh I love u I love u'. gee, in the car, he told me he was late bcos he wen to get flowers + the florist took her own time to arrange! Lol.. he said 'I had to put down my ego and still msg u nicely lor..'bah. I waited for 1hr+ for him, of cuz will be a little unhappy rite! Ok la, but his reason is accepted:):):) thank you for the beautiful flowers baby~

Oh well, but good things always come to an end. I rem we had a heated argument thereafter in the afternoon. Sigh. What for gimme flowers wen things r still going wrong..hai. took quite a long time to tok it out calmly. I tink we spent de whole Saturday brooding on it. Ever since he entered this unit, de stress level increase and more easily short-termpered. –hugs- I hope things like this wun happen again. Hai. He told me 'sorry to imprint such sad memories into your life. But they’ll remain as memories, good to be forgotten cos it wun happen le. Never ever..baby u mean a great deal to me, I dun wanna lose u. hope u still love me, cos im always loving u. so many things I wanna tell u, so little time, im sorry for putting u thru this hardship, it’ll be over soon'.

We wen out after tt, but I cant rem where. Spent de nite at my boy’s place before we headed to Raffles City for coffee on Sunday. Hee, took some funny pictures:

his va actress, jeanette aw! hehe..

aint he lucky to have 3 pretty ladies hehe..

Celebrated my mum’s birthday on one of de Saturdays too. It’s a tradition in my family to have a meal togeda, den on de actual day cake-cutting =) dinner was @ Marina Square’s Pariss Buffet! Hee, first time there, so very excited :p the food there is pretty good, esp if you enjoy eating oyster.. salmon etc. it’ll be value for money eh.

My boy picked me up for breakfast on Sunday on de way back fr camp. It was a short day as he was feelin tired. So nothing much about tt day.. –hugs-

some shots taken, thanks to IG:

our fav pic:

jus before leaving:

the love renewal (?):

Happy (very) belated anniversary baby!

We din exactly countdown to the day, but we were by each other’s side tt nite:)

Finally.. I could present to him the scrapbook I’ve been workin on for the past year. Everytime very tempted to show him lor. Den wen I buy those materials, I also cant tell him wad is it for.. so xin ku to keep a surprise! But I tink this the first time I succeeded to make it a surprise! Hehe. De rest.. all he found out earlier.. not fair~

Some snapshots of the scrapbook:

Had a very simple celebration. We woke up early to makan @ Suntec’s Porridge Buffet! Very yummy n cheap! Hehe. Caught the movie ‘Rumour Has It’ too..nice touching show, hehe :p din had much time togeda, but it was a lovely day to remember :p love you.

last wkend was spent @ my boy's fren's birthday party. Happy 21st Birthday Meijun! :p so many March babies! hehe.. :D

You make me love you more and more each day. time is short, I’ll treasure every moment I have with you. I wish tis fairytale wil nv end.. but I feel a bad hunch,. few nites ago, I dreamt of bad things happening to us, like history of my past r/s happening to tis as well, gosh. Hopefully, its just my crazy thoughts running again.. we'll still go thru thick n thin wif each other :) love u as much as u love me :D

the long entry

2006-02-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

long time since i penned down a detailed entry *lazy* gee. oh well, my life aint tt exciting anyway hur. ha.

Valentines Day just passed in the blink of an eye. Happy Belated Valentines Day To All! hehe :p hope u'all had a fab one, wif ur love ones :) It can be Friendship Day, Lovers Day or Family Day hur? heh. very pleased to see the Loveline Advertisement on New Paper too :) *smiles*

Valentines Day fell on a wkday so my boy and i celebrated de wkend in advance. It was a very simple day as we din reali make any specific plans. jus a dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market, afterwhich we headed to the Esplanade for Hot Brownie w/ice cream @ Black Angus. It was also the last day of CNY, thus managed to catch the fireworks! hehe :p might sound abnormal, but i simply love the outlook of fireworks, lol. the colourful lights depict hope for me. colourful fireworks = colourful life we'll have. muahaha...*lame*

i was on leave on Monday, tryin to settle a lot of my sch stuff but end up din reali accomplish a lot, sigh. feelin quite down wif my stupid studies in fact, but cant do much to it. some things r not reali going well and its reali depressing noeing bout some things. some things i dun understand, yet i've to force myself to understand. for the sake of wad? i dunno. some pt of time, i wish i cld jus stop studyin n relax my mind. *sigh*

the week at work was pretty ok. spent some time doin my assignment. hav to liase wif my project mates for some assignment too. wonder how we're gonna squeeze thru our so-limited time. now tt my com is sorta screwed up, i dunno how the hell am i gonna do my work too :( my brother aint a least helpful. im stuck wif tis dumbo com which a lot of things n programs i dun hav. and no one in my family bothers la, cos they hav their own com to start wif. crap.

nothin much to look fwd to tis yr i feel. hopefully a tentative Bangkok trip is coming along the way mid tis yr. my boy ask me if i wanna go togeda wif his frens + gf. i hav a bad hunch bout work by mid yr cos my colleague is going on maternity leave = work all left for me to do. crap.

times wen im feelin so upset, so depressed, so torn apart, there's no one except tis blog tt i can turn to. so ironic, but its true. we had some disturbances recently, quarrels that led to a lot of tears. i hav no idea how tis letter came bout, whether it is bcos my boy felt bad, or wadever wadever reasons there might be. It touched me indeed. but is it good or bad? being touched = becoming more soft hearted. he wrote:

My Dearest Xinyi,

Surprised I called you that? This letter was actually meant to be written in Chinese, but CMI, every 2 characters I would forget how to write one of them =p

As the lecture goes on, slowly eating the time I could have spent with you on Valentines Day! I yearn to celebrate such an occasion with you. Furthermore, it could have been our first together. Reflecting back, I realised I havent been good to you in the sense of adding some spice or romance into our r/s. It feels sucky inside me.

Ever since the night I poured out my heartfelt worries & sadness to you, I felt less worrying about things of the future. There's more in life out there. Like making you happy, seeing my family stay healthy: makes me happy. It really hit me in the face that I am owing you a lot of debt, emotional debt. Love and romance shoudl always be present no matter how far apart we are or how long we're together. I know I should put in more effort to make up for this. My only explanation for now is Combat E is really taking a toll on my energy and even health.

I understand your insecurities and the unstable future you worry about. Sometimes I feel helpless. But baby, I'm cracking my head for my future career so as to better provide for you, for us and our family.

Sometimes my decisions may seem to display a disadvantage or something you would not be happy about, its because I have things to consider. Wait for me k dearest? Wait till I commission and things get settled down, I promise things will be better, if it doesnt, I will make it better. I love you baobei, i miss you.

Loving you always,

Wilson

the words he wrote made me cry. deep in my heart, i hope every single word is true :) i feel a shaky r/s emerging, but deep inside, i hope im wrong. or perhaps im jus living in self-denial? ha. time will show everything.. *ponders* i get quite upset wen frens come into the picture of our quarrels. 3rd party will never understand.. *cries*

the past few conversations i had wif a fren made me question bout myself. she had some disputes wif a fren whom she knew yrs ago. trust was the problem. some misunderstanding happen between dem i tink. friendship can be so fragile. she made a remark "even tho i know u later than them, i tink you're a better fren than them and i feel you're more trustworthy. you're always there for your frens". is that true? i noe myself, its a clear no.

i try to be there for them, but i've my own personal life too. once in awhile i'll jus drop one or two sms-es askin bout their well-being :) it makes me happy noeing that the pple ard me are doing good *smiles* pple change - ive leanrt tt thru my 3 yrs in poly. do wad u tink is right, but dun expect ppl to treat u de same good way too.

den days after, she had some problem wif her r/s. as usual, me being a thrid party, i can nv understand what they're going thru so ive no say either. thereafter, she commented: "i wish i was at least half like you. you're nice to pple & you seem to be so easily contented. i can nv hav a r/s like you". i tink the first person hu'll object to tt sentence will be my boy, lol.

i am neither nice, nor easily contented! lol.. i jus wan to treasure the good things tt hav come into my life right now. who noes wen god is going to tk them away fr me? i dun even noe if my current r/s can work out well, its a risk tt we all take, we have a choice, but often, we put ourself into such vulnerable position tt our heart speak more than our mind :/ nothin is certain, i wan to be happy wif my current situation :) i just got back my previous modules project marks and am very satisfied wif it :D First Class isnt easy to get; its definitely a boost to my morale and i hope i can do the same for my future modules :) Thank you teacher.

*the body of our r/s is shaky, but the root is still firm. our love is strong (i hope). i dunno how else to help, if you dun help urself, no one will be able to. stay strong my dear. be more determined and dun fall. even if you fall, i'll be there to catch you :) my heart still beats for you and i hope its the same for you too. thank u for the flowers, its really lovely*

2006-02-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

another one more year and 3 months.. its getting unbearable..

our thoughts

2006-02-13T12:28:00.000+08:00

i saw him tear the second time..*sigh*

we had a heart-to-heart talk last nite. he had many thoughts on his mind, many worries.

the past 2wks, he has been sending me some 'unique' sms-es. Unique as in words he dun usually say, and not reali 'like him' to say it.

"you're my motivation to succeed in tis course and in life. im determined to complete this course. thanks for the encouragement & support. i love u so much to lose u, dun ever leave me.im here for today, tmr and the future always.."

"i dun wan anythg to be in between us. im happy doin things for u and wanna spend as much time wif u as possible. after the 2 yrs,i'll leave the status as a boyfriend and become ur husband!i wan u to witness the good that will come into our r/s in future:)"

"you're on my mind everywhere i go..been tinkin a lot financially, parents health n ur well being..so many things happening here makin me wanna giv up. but wad drives me to hold on is my parents & ur support."

i guess he's been tinkin quite a lot, till he sorta 'brokedown' n tear last nite. extra burden is on him takin into account de fact tt he's de only child. he feels bad tt at sucha age, his parents r still workin for him, and he cant provide dem wif much. :/ *sigh*

stuff in army arent going too good too. my boy has completed his course n is back at de horrible place till June. thoughts of giving up came into him. he felt tt if he cld opt for a 8-5 job, he wld be able to spend more time wif his parents, more imptly his mum. *cries*

he worries for them, his studies, and our r/s. determined to study, yet worried bout the fees etc. then he's afraid of not being able to make me happy. *double sigh* and silly me, after hearing all his worries, i asked him a stupid question "am i being a burden to u.."?

i tink i feel at fault seeing him so vexed wif stuff yet i cant lift a helpin hand, thus tt question came to my mind. *sorry dearest* time n again, he consoled me n gave me assurance, yet i dunno why i hav such thoughts. our "we'll go through thick n thin together" still stands :)

i cant wait for the arrival of June - "it'll be the proudest moment of my life to my parents and you".

as we were talking, my constant stomach pain was unbearable. its been quite frequent recently, n its always at nite. *sigh* some nites, i wonder, wad if one day i kena some deadly sickness, den hu is going to tk care of my parents oso? *cries* its scary tinkin of it, but death is still unavoidable regardless of age :/ seein my brother 'directionless', and my sis aint reali working, i feel a heavy load on my shoulders. whats worse, i hav my studies to be concern bout. sigh.

instances wen i feel so stressed out, touts of giving up came into my mind too. i try to appear that im coping well, for fear that they'll worry unduly, but sometimes, i feel the 'breaking-down' stage too. i hope i wun disappoint them. it'll be the proudest moment for my family and my boy too :)

*stay strong my love. thats wad u always tel me rite? we'll overcome everything togeda okie?:) i hope im reali not a burden to you. i wan to see u happy, as much as u wan to see me happy :) love u*

shang xin

2006-02-11T14:07:00.000+08:00

hao shang xin. hao xin tong.

the new year

2006-02-05T09:53:00.000+08:00

(updates for the cny & the wkend)

1 week has passed since de commenement of the CNY. meaning.. no more holidays till April! how sad! =(

Like every other yr, first day of the CNY was spent mostly at my father's side. At nite, my boy came to pick me up and i'd dinner @ his granny's plc. Everyone was there so it was a huge crowd, heh. It was a gambling nite as usual, lol. My boy was bz watchin his soccer, so i played on behalf of him, lol.

He dozed off as usual, and wen he woke up, i won 60 bucks liao! heh. before that, we were losing quite huge sum of $$ cos he was forced to be de banker! :/ I learnt a new game called "In Between" tho. fun! hehe. interesting~ we stayed till bout 2 b4 we cmi, lol.. busy playin so no photos! i muz say, gambling is getting more fun! LOL~

2nd day of CNY was spent visiting my mum's side. cool, my uncle changed car again! hehe.. now can fit 2 big families :) my boy came over in de evening and stayed for dinner. he had a late sumptuous Sakae Sushi lunch wif his frens b4 tt so wasnt too hungry, ahha. can see his tummy growing liao, hee.

we left only after all my relatives wen bk :) watched Fearless @ Marina Sq. nice show but my eyes hurt de whole movie cos of my lens, sob! been wearin it too long :/

anyway, i wanna complain. my parents + aunties gave him de same amt as dey gave me! hur. not fair rite? hmph~

my boy picked me up on de 3rd day of CNY. hehe wen his place to pai nian first. i muz say, my boy's mum looked gr8 in red! hehe~ stunning :) another ang pao from her! hehe *grin* send his mum to his grand uncle's plc after tt. wooh, condo @ Simei! finally, a East resident! heh. we headed to Chnagi Airport thereafter for ice-cream! lol.

the greedy him:

he surprised me wif tis cute flower saying "specially for you", hehe:

the 2 of us @ Changi Airport:

after tt full meal, we drove bk to his uncle's plc, for gambling, again! lol.. seriously, his cousins r quite mad! especially de small ones! only like in primary sch? and they're mad over gambling ok! ask dem to be banker dey also refuse! so clever! heh.

we played all de way from 4, and no one wanna leave their seat even for dinner! faint~ kena chased out, lol..

some snapshots taken by my boy @ de condo's function room:

the 2 Js:

at de playground:

aww, he's so handsome rite? *cutie* hehe:

Candice & me:

de naughty kids:

you and me:

after dinner, we came back for more gambling! lol.. lost a small sum of $ tis time, sad! :( and my boy's mum say i was so 'mad' that day, screaming to place bets, lol! =p a nite of superb fun! too bad, work de nex day! sian!

*Birthday wishes to Yijun & Angeline who turns 21 and 22 respectively, heh. May ya dreams come true, and may happiness be wif ya always! Cheers!*

PS. Thanks to ah mou for resizing the pics for me! hehe :p

-It was a nice new year, love you dearest. the flowers are really pretty :)-

the wkend was fast over as usual. i attended one of de Fengshui talk, courtesy of my sch (free entry!). it was a very interesting talk :) call me superstitious, i just wan to avoid bad luck as much as if its within my control. do sth better than regret ltr ya? as ive heard bout it, de luck for ox in 06 aint very good. be it work, sch or r/s, all quite bad. managed to hear for my boy's family as well as my family :) and so i spend my wkend lookin ard for fengshui items, hee. my boy bought me a Mandarin Duck rose quartz crystal for v-day :) hehe. find it quite cute ;p thank u so much =D

we also catched "Fun with Dick & Jane" @ PS. wooh, full house! hmm, i still prefer Cheaper by the Dozen to tis show tho.

Sunday was 'slacking' day. not for yesterday tho, hee. after a good rest, we headed to town for some 'walking'. supposedly starting bk my dance class tis Wed, but after much consideration, my boy told me not to..:( cos of its ooh lu location, sad. he wanted me to wait a few mths ltr, whr he can drive me to the class instead, in a way safer. so now, Wed is free! ha. ok la, i'll look at it as more time for study + leisure :)

projects deadline nearing anyway. sian ah~

-take care my dearest. dun fear for the battle, be strong alrite? in your heart, you noe im still here supporting u mentally yah? love u!-

-be a fool-

2006-02-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

i hate feelin tis way. there was a first time, then a second time, when's the third?

i'll make a decision soon. a right one i hope. just gotta use my head, not my heart. (can i really do tat?)

yes, life is unpredictable. and not to forget, its short.

can i hav selective memory? haha, dumb me. thats not realli possible, lol.
each time i feel so down, its not me who suffer, its my heart. it bleeds. it hurts. *cries*

when things go wrong at work, when i feel so directionless, when i feel like everyone is against me, i hope you'll still be there for me.

If im a fool tis life..then let me remain a fool forever.

-miz u dearest..*hugs*-

sigh

2006-02-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

-lost in my own world of thoughts-

just back from a good drive. the new car is powDerful, lol. i tink i nid to buck up wif my driving. my boy's mum has been askin me upteem times to drive :/

shall update CNY days soon. my photoshop is gone =(

valentines day is coming, weird, i dun feel exactly v excited bout it. initially i was, but now, i dun feel it, ha. dunno how to celebrate our anniversary either. i tink im startin to feel less interested in doing/ planning stuffs? or am i jus plain tired? the lesser u expect things to b de way it is, de lesser de disappointment yea? ha.

seein my fren's bf so excited bout their anniversary arriving in April, i tink happy couples stil do exist =) *smiles* its rare to see guys even more excited than de gal? and expressing his love for her wifout fail? and spending countless times wif her, yet dun mind anythg. lol. *impressed*

-sigh. D.I.T-

-some outdated pics-

2006-01-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

kinda free at tis moment, so gonna post some 'outdated' pics, heh.

Wernie's 21st Birthday:

the happy and the sad, lol:

Dad's 56th Birthday @ No Signboard Restaurant:

met June on Tuesday to get our nails done for CNY, heh =) *smiles* work for the rest of de wk till tadah, Friday! gee. Firstly, it was my boy's birthday! Secondly, our dept have lunch treat, so YAY :) hehe =p lunch was at Hyatt's Straits Kitchen buffet, gosh, the food's so yummy! *greedy* really delicious! shall bring my family there one day =) it was a gr8 lunch and a gr8 get-together wif one another. even better, the boss gave us an unofficial half day! hehe =)

so my colleagues & i wen off shopping. din buy anythg tho, but we relieve some kiddish moments by taking neo print! LOL. one by one left to meet frens & bf.. leaving the 3 lonely ones! lol, haha. my boy could book out early too, but he la.. he and his crazy cars.. he wen wif his family to see cars, wifout telling me and makin me wait for 5 hours! i wanna complain! *angry* the plan of just to 'see cars' ended up becoming 'buying car', lol.. and when tt happens, i am being put one side! ahha.

anyway, the car will arrive in one wk's time, and my boy has been tellin me how excited he is. faint faint~ the first thing my father will ask is the car plate number, lol, triple faint.

oh yea, so the 3 lonely gals decided to chill out @ Balcony @ Heerens. haven been thr b4 tho. nice ambience, seats a bit too high tho. ahha. im short =p

for the first time, i wasnt the one hu initiated to tk pics ok! hehe. i finally found someone more siao than me. gee =p

the DBS peeps, 2 J and 1 B. hehe..

we left soon after ard 7+ as it was going to rain. had a gr8 time tho. *smiles* i'll really miss them if they leave (some are intending to already). my boy picked me up @ Bugis den we had a very late dinner @ Fish & Co to celebrate his birthday. =)

tis boy surprised me wif some flowers, and told me to tk a pic wif it, lol. cos i tink he wun be buying flowers any time sooner? heh, jokes.

heh. i also had a prezzie for him! lol.. made 21 cookies! wahahah~ had a hard time doing it on Thurs nite. the flour was simply just too stubborn! but it tunr out quite good tho, hehe =) its 21 heart-shaped cookies and i made it into 'I LUV U'! not very obvious la, but tried my best liao :p

we catched "Cheaper By The Dozen 2" thereafter @ Marina Square. nice show! damn funny~ i told him "i wan 12 children!" and was scolded as "crazy!", LOL~ hahaha.

checked out Essential Brew @ HV after that. and bumped into his army frens! lol.. so qiao~

super tired after that, and we wen off to dreamland. lol.. the ZzzZZzzz monster~ awaiting reunion dinner now. =) alrite shall see wad i can help out wif, tata =)

-Miss you baby. Thank you for the lovely flowers. I'll take care of it and make sure it grows like our love! hehe. Just wanna let you noe, I still love you!-

-some thoughts-

2006-01-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Note: I wrote tis @ work. Shall blog more after CNY)

Used to spend most of my holidays working in the service line. Now that I’m not exactly in the service line, I often complain to my boy how much I wish to go back to the good old days of serving customers. Most importantly, to see the smile on their faces. =)

Tho retail hours are tiring and weekends are most likely burnt, the joy and satisfaction you get exceeds all the torture of standing long hours. Of cuz, there are those cruel customers who will make things difficult for you, but those are minority lar. I choose to believe that nicer people are greater in proportion than those nasty people. =)

Having to work in the banking line, I dun get to stand for like 8-10 hours? Instead, half of my life is spent sitting down, lol. I get to talk to customers and serviced their requests, but the lack of face-to-face touch is different. I see my colleagues quarreling with their bosses because of some communication on the phone & emails. Often, misunderstandings can happen across the phone. Thus, if I were to choose, I wld prefer a face-to-face conversation. J

Heh. Nevertheless, very happy today, at work. =) Was talking to this client of the bank, who’s been very friendly from the first day I spoke to her, even till today. She was telling me bout how happy she is that their company is shutting down for 1 week for CNY and ask if the bank has such practice too (of cuz not! Heh). We started a small lil conversation about her family life blah blah. Lucky her, has one son and daughter, both in Uni and graduating the same time! So nice rite! Then we concluded 'after that, can kiao kah! (shake leg)' *smiles* Afterwhich, she asked if I wanna come over during CNY! *faint* The conversation didn’t seemed awkward at all. I dun like clients who draw a line. If we can talk to them like 'friends', I believe it wld make a better business partnership, isnt it not?

I’m so happy to be able to meet such client who indeed brought joy to me, especially today. =) Thank you for that call. It brightened my day *smiles*

*-on a lighter note, i jus finished baking chocolate chip cookies! hehe. =p mummy says its nice, YAY :) its for my boy actually, first time doing it tho. Hope he likes it. If he doesnt, den too bad le :/ feelin super tired now, sleepin time-*

P.S. Happy 21st Birthday Dearest (in 2 hours time) =) May happiness be with you always.

sigh

2006-01-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

people often asks.. "would you rather choose to be wif someone tt u love more than he loves u or vice versa?" mayb today, i can find an answer to that question.. I'll have someone hu loves me more. I might not have so much time in life :/

what is the basis of a r/s? They say love is to accept all his/her flaws, does that include lies as well?

I see people tokin bout marriages, planning for their future wif their bfs, and i start to tink what will my future be like? young no doubt, but thinkin bout it means u hav plans to live your life wif tt future someone yes? Its a blessing to say 'i do' and prolly every gal's dream to get married and 'live happily after'. how fairytale is that~ but how many end up divorcing each other? the reality is scary.

mayb im startin to understand why my frens always sae they wld choose to be still a baby, - cos most likely, you'll be taken care of, wif extreme care n concern! as u get older, if you're lucky you have your family & soulmate to stay by you. if you're not tt fortunate, you have your family by your side. but 20-30 yrs down the road, you might jus be the only one, supporting urself to survive in tis cruel selfish world.

i hav no idea what god has set in for me. im scared, cos i dun tink 2006 is a gd year for me. its only the first month, and im reali fearful. things seemed so perfect, but when the truth is out, the battle is lost. once bitten, twice shy.

-sorry peeps for this 'unwelcomed' entry. just rambling out my thoughts. wonder if my boy missses me. sigh. Have a great Chinese New Year everyone-

-sad-

2006-01-22T11:08:00.000+08:00

-..jin shen jin shi zui ai de ren de shi ni
shang hai wo zui shen de shi wo zi ji..-

-till the end-

2006-01-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

*smiles* i finally finish my exam today! =) finally can rest my brain for awhile =p paper was still ok, tho a lil tricky :p anyway its over, so not gonna brood over it. still praying silently for good results, which will only come out 2 months later, lol! =) things hav been ok so far, except for my brother. sigh, he's still like a little brother, i hope he mature in his thinkin fast =( he's lack of motivation is worrying the whole family. sigh sigh~ when will it be the day he learn.. *sad*

going back to work tmr after taking 2 days leave to study. cant wait for the wkend for some good rest. =) the wkend will be spent celebrating Wernie's 21st birthday & Dad's birthday! *smiles* Soon, CNY is arriving! heh. *lookin forward*

my boy's doing good in his new camp. lol..its temporary tho. but better than nth hur? they were selected for some 3wk course thingy, and apparently, he said de food + envt is so much better. lol~ HAPPY FOR U DEAR :)
he's also now more free to use hp, lol.. i received so many msgs from him today! a bit not like de usual..lol.. =p

fell in love totally wif tis song wen ah chan sent it to me yest. omg~ it totally melt my heart, lol. my boy say he'll sing tt to me during our wedding! lol.. *dream dream* heh. Its a really nice song, tho i dunno hu sang it =p

-- Till the End--
All these precious moments, with you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven, that's holding me all night
I don't know how i foudn you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share

*
In my heart, I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there is no place I rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
And through it all, I know you'll come to see
That you're the one till the end

All my friends around me
Said you'll be gone too soon
Babe I'm going make you see
We've found our way back home

Repeat*

-the smile on your face puts a smile in my fragile heart. seeing you smile, gives me life. it tells me the reason why i'm living for, that is to love u and make u smile. u mean as much as i mean to you-

-Happy Birthday Dearest-

2006-01-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

heya! backiee!~ hehe =p tired tired~

dear's finally back =) heh heh. picked him up on Thursday! surprised him wif tarts i made! hehe~ dear bought some sweet stuff from Brunei back. hehe, an interesting 'bank love cheque' (lol) and my fav winnie de pooh stickers! *smiles* thank u hunney! had breakfast wif his mum while he narrated to us his horrible trip, hehe :p

supposed to surprise him with his bdae gift, but din realise he aldy knew wad i got for him! sigh! *sad* its a personalised iPod Nano! =) black sexy colour! hehe :p personalised cos it has engravings done at de back! hehe. hope u like it dear :)

tis card wasnt meant to be given to him yet, but he saw it and took it out himself =( bah. its 2o small cards wif 1 big card, tt signifies 21 yrs old! heh. looks so messy, but nvm la, its de tout that counts hor dear? gee.

slept de whole afternoon thereafter. im tired myself too, lol, after only slpin for a few hrs. :/ woke up, and it was aldy de evening, hehe =p had some walk done @ PS where we had our dinner there too. :)

Friday was a FOOD day! hehe *grin* we had lunch buffet togeda wif his army frens, to celebrate those January babies =p I ate at Royal Plaza on Scotts again! *faint* so coincidental hur. too bad, lunch buffet did not provide chocolate fondue! *sob* nevertheless, food still taste nice. i tink de lunch is kinda better than de dinner? =) it was a nice gathering. they r another funny bunch of guys, lol.

after lunch, waited for de delivery man to send de cake down. heng he came on time, wen we jus reached. =) headed to J Bar to deposit de cake there to refrigerate it, heh.

our dinner was also satisfying as we settled our hungry stomachs @ Esplanade's Humble House Restaurant! =) de place looked so grand, i tout dey wld chase me out, cos i was in slippers! *geez* of cuz dey din lar, hehe :p

we took our individual photos, hehe:

so full after de dinner =( took a walk lor, to digest, lol..

hehe, foudn this cute thingy and my boy decided to take tis foto, lol:

tis pic jus reminds me of hongkong, de clear blue sky =)

-i love u!-

the car fanatic, hehe:

it got so dark thereafter. romantic to walk along Esplanade hur hur, hehe:

9+, my boy told me to increase de reservation from 10 ppl to 20 pple.. =( suddenly had last min notice tt some ppl cld make it. *faint faint* the bar was packed, terrible.

the early birds:

they r another bunch of amusing peeps, lol:

wanted to tk de 2nd grp pic, den... tadah! it was so dark, ah mou took tis artistic shot, hehe:

tis is a better picture! hehe..

my boy, with gabriel, nicholas+gf! *smiles*

my boy, with cousin claire+bf:

his cousin's plot, poor boy, lol:

cut de cake ard 11+ when all arrived. stupid waiter, wen to ask him "so do ur wan to cut de cake now?" LOL. how can ask birthday boy! wahahah~

de 'soccer' cake. had a hard time choosing de cakes. =( din wanna get those 'key design' cos dey only had those for min 30 pax, which i tout wld be too much. hope u like tis cake anyway dear =)

the cake cutting:

the birthday boy, soon turning 21!

a quick shot with him! tis was de only pic i manage to tk wif my boy, sob! =( gee

i was trying to tk de band, but looks like it cant be seen, heh:

dedicated a birthday song to him =) thanks to de band! *smiles* -Happy Birthday Dear!-

and so..de traditional way of 'eating' de cake starts! putting cream on one's face, faint!!

*faint* ended off with this nice group foto:

thanks to all who came. your presence is appreciated =) thanks for all de prezzies + ang paos too. hehe, thanks for de 'torture' also hur! gee. poor boy was being 'bullied'. birthday boy always end up lidat! LOL~ it was a great time indeed minus de seh part, lol..

Happy 21st Birthday Dear, hope you'd loads of fun last nite! =)

Saturday was a tired day. couldnt catch much sleep :/ headed to de ICA to settle my passport stuff. haiya, so ma fan =( had Sakae for lunchie and headed to town, heh. now back home sweet home! =) gr8 weekend! tmr lunching wif my boy + his parents. hmm.. so fast, its Sunday soon, boo!

-times with u have always been great. you make me smile, from my heart. dun let me go, cos i cant let u go. hope u enjoyed urself wif ya frens. its great to see u smile, enjoy and having fun wif ya frens =) a simple thank you from you makes me feel that all de time spent to plan was worth it. i love you my dearest. once again, happy birthday-

he's back!!

2006-01-12T06:53:00.000+08:00

hehe. in one hour's time, i'll be able to see my boy! hehehehe~

heh. now waiting for his parents to fetch me =p hope we arent too late. just checked de details, they are arriving early. hmm.. *excited*

havin a bit of headache now. =( tink its bcos of de lack of slp. oh no oh no~ i slept only after doing my tarts. LOL.. din wanna do it so early else it wun be fresh. so i did it like ard 1am..lol..heh, but de result's good, so happy! =) mummy said its nice, hehe! :p yea, third time trying, working towards perfection! *smiles*

i tink i'll slp in de car lata. lol. soon, its going to go into dreamland liao. =p

heh. Friday will be an eventful day. =) celebrating my boy's bdae in advance and also his frens bdae noon time. buffet, here we come! hehehe~

-i miss you so much. de day finally arrived =)-

-the happy me-

2006-01-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

that simple sms from my boy after work simply made my heart smile (and melt) =) and its not sinking anymore =p (u dunno how much i couldnt concentrate at work today arh dear!) i noe i've been worrying bout him unduly, but cant help it, esp wen he's in overseas lar~ :p glad that he's back from that horrible outfield. can dey not hav anymore outfields?! it is torturing to both de guys and their loved ones ar! jus called his mum to help him bao ping an, hope she feels more an xing :):):)

thank u lucky stars. :) u dunch noe how much i appreciate it :)

*YAY* u succeed in going thru de ordeal wor dear =) *smiles* de nex few days wil b better for ya b4 u come back ya? i cant wait to go pick u up =p yea, we'll build a family togeda, dun worry :) and i'm not running away *promise* i miss u - the man i love. the man i feel for. the man my heart beats for. the man im havin a future life with :):):)

-de pictures-

2006-01-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

The Dinner Pictures:

The 2 Pretty Sisters, Joyln & Emi:

The other 2 Pretty Gals, Claire & Me, wahaha:

Tis pic is for my boy to salivate =p

We wen photo-crazy and took more pics @ the buffet spread! hehe:

Yummy-licious food!!

not forgetting, there's chocolate fondue! wah~

dark chocolate is fantasticc!

one of the grp pic, thx to Jolyn hu was force to tk it by her father, hehe:

The 4 of us, the pretty ones! wahah~ rite Jolyn? LOL~

tis busy ger was sms-ing non-stop, and tadah i saw her fone! and i took out mine, and snap! LOL~ see de angle of de fone a bit wrong hor?

so we took again! hehe~ look so perfect tis time! =p tis pic and de grp pic (4 of us), dun u tink our hair length & parting look so similar? *faint*

ending off wif tis lovely picture =) bought by Jolyn & family wen dey were @ Japan. its a couple thingy, hee. de Mickey Mouse is for my dear boy. *smiles* Thanks so much gal! -She's de demure one! she self-claimed that! muahahah~ :)

tis gal simply made my day. cos tokin to her on msn, means i can tease her. lol..

-i'm missing u very much at this moment-

-tears like rain-

2006-01-08T14:50:00.000+08:00

i realised, its hard studying wifout my boy's encouragement. =( perhaps, there's sth heavy on my mind that's y its so hard getting to remember stuff for my xams. sigh sigh. i wonder how he is now~ *worried*

Saturday, had a short shoppin wif my parents b4 heading off wif my boy's parents to Royal Plaza on Scotts Hotel to celebrate his grandma's birthday. it was a buffet dinner! =) we were one of de late ones, cos of a mini jam :/ it was a fun nite out tho, not forgetting snapping fotos everywhere we wen! lol~ see u all on Chinese New Year! hee, we'll tk more pics again ya? *smiles* [pics up later wen Jolyn has send me de fotos! =)]

my boy wasnt wif me physically, but you are in my mind okie? *hugs* i noe his mum is worried as well, and i dunno wad feelin i shld be feelin (does it makes sense?) as he's been calling me only, and not his parents =( he called dem once, on de day of his arrival thats all. sigh~ i can only reckon 2 reasons: 1. by the time he calls, its already v late (like 12+ going 1am). and he aint really allowed to tok at tt pt of time. 2. overseas calls r expensive. usually we tok for bout 3-5 mins only.

sigh~ i cant help but b really bothered by all these small stuffs. its affecting me, and i wonder if im doing a right thg by being wif him. after all, parents are stil more more impt than gf rite? *sob* de fact tt he's de only son, makes me feel worse. no doubt his parents & relatives hav been treating me v well, u noe, there's a female instinct tt tells me sth is jus not quite right? *sigh* how many ppl will actually understand how i feel..? *sob*

these nites hav been hard. cant sleep well [i even tried counting sheeps !] often waking up in de middle of de nite. =( *cries* its been pouring n pouring non-stop, and my tears are just like rain, pouring like there's no ending to it :/ i tink rain is just like my best friend :(

will our fairytale depict an ending..? there's many things i wan to say, many things i wish to tell u, many things i wan u to noe~ i cant wait for u to get back, dear. *cries* You're my fren, my lover, my soulmate..

Happy 21st Birthday Lihe!

2006-01-07T11:46:00.000+08:00

some words i chanced upon on another gal's blog, which had some impact on me:

"why make torture yourself for another's insecurity?why work hard for another's disatisfaction?why wait till you are completely heart broken and ultimately shattered then leave?all becos of the so called 'love'?

he might be dealing things in a immature way and leaving you to handle and hold on to the consequences..

you might be fair to him by staying..

but are you fair to yourself and those who love and care for you?

you ain't just anybody or some other gal...

you are an individual who has all rights to be treasured and loved in a proper good way..

i know sometimes it hurts to leave.. but remember this too..

sometimes it hurts more to stay..."

quite true hur? any thoughts on this? *ponders*

"Nothing lasts forever. When you understand this it makes it easier to not be so attached to what you're experiencing. So when you're experiencing something you think is bad, you can relax in the knowledge that nothing bad lasts forever. Similarly, when you're experiencing happiness you can also realize that nothing good lasts forever. Why would you want to do that? Because it helps you to be more aware of how you're reacting to your experiences at all times.

Craving sensory stimulation, craving existence, and craving non-existence give rise to the "continuity of being" (the tendency to confuse reality with your perception of reality), and with it its attendant suffering. Say you want something and you don't get it--you'd get sad or frustrated. But say you want something and you do get it. Eventually you'll get bored with it and you'll start wanting so start wanting something else. And so you start all over again. And that's a bummer

You can end eternal suffering by ending the craving that leads to the continuation of suffering. Remember that suffering is caused by endlessly wanting what you can't have. So if you can stop this endless wanting, you won't suffer anymore. That's not to say that you won't ever feel pained or sad (or happy or ecstatic) ever again. It's just that it won't be part of an endless cycle of wanting--not getting--being sad--wanting again.

eternal craving? Just live by the ideals of the Noble Eightfold Path. The Path is grounded in a program of meditation. It delineates a plan of self-discipline regarding ethical conduct, mental discipline, and wisdom. The Path avoids two extremes--the pursuit of complete and ultimate sensory pleasure, or the pursuit of utter self-denial.

u can understand the noble truths and be happy forever.."

that should be from some Buddhist thingy hur? tho i used to b fr a Buddhist sch, and even studied Buddhist lesson (hehe), till now, all i believe in is karma. yup, that's all. the realm of karma, can be quite scary :/

heh. its finally de wkend. =) a gd day to slp in man. after de long hours of studying (and also surfing de net, hee), and the lack of slp, i shld b happy tt i can recoup my lost slp now hur? geez. but cant get to slp leh. =( i tink im a light sleeper =p gd or bad? -sigh-

Lihe had her 21st birthday celebration @ her place yest. Happy 21st Birthday Babe! hehe, the first gal in our PIGS gang to turn 21 wor! =) [i'll be the 2nd! quite excited! hehe] Hope you liked the Nike tennis jersey we got ya.. dun forget us no matter how much u love tennis hor! *grin* hope u'd a fab time, tho we'd to leave early :p

Also, ro, js & joyce, enjoy urself @ Bangkok! Bon Voyage~! These 3 pigs are so fortunate to be able to go Bangkok! =p Have fun gals~!

-i cant wait. i cant wait. i cant wait for my boy to get back-
-i cant wait. i cant wait. i cant wait to hug my boy tight tight-

-bless my boy-

2006-01-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

lucky stars, remember to bless my boy! =) *sob* he's going for a 4 days 3 nights outfield tommorrow.. *cries* so long can! *wails* and he says every 3am it rains over there. so worried now. sigh~ please protect him, lucky stars.

dear, remember ya promise to come back safely in one piece okie! *grin* lurve ya~

-cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou, wo de tian kong, xing xing dou liang le~ wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li, ni ai de na ke tian she, zhang kai shuang shou, bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni~ ni yao xiang xin, xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li, xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju-

-thank u, lucky stars-

2006-01-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

this entry, is to thank my lucky stars! whether its true of their existence or not, i just wanna say a big thank you. =)

i am very thankful, as the exam i had today was absolutely wonderful! the questions that came out were all exactly that i studied! i managed to survive the whole paper *phew* it was meant to be a 3hr paper, but i left at de 2hr mark. i'm not the first tho, dun worry. heh. as usual, my hands were aching from all the writing. my memory disappointed me a little as i suddenly got black out, but managed to get back to the right track soon after. thank u, lucky stars. *smiles*

i left the exam room wif mixed feelings. happy that i've finish 1 paper. but tinkin tt there's another one more paper to mug within de next 2 weeks, i cant help but, sigh~ *sob* taken so many exams, until i really hate and dread it arh! *faint* its torturing to de brain keke. =p

was on the way home, missing my boy, wen i got his sms, hehe =p [dear, u really made my day!] he finally can receive my sms too =) i dunno wad happen to my fone last 2 days, but my boy jus couldnt receive any of my msgs. =( called Singtel de 2nd time today and dey finally resolve the problem at their end. YAY~

if only lucky stars were in real existence, and they can be transferable, i wld like my boy to have it now.. =) he told me its terrible in there, sigh~ what can i do but just pray that time will fly faster, so that he'll b outta tat horrible place. :/ lucky star, lucky star, protect my boy will u?

Hang on there my dear. It'll be over soon before you know it. Rest assure, i'll fly to the airport to fetch u okie? *hugs* -you mean so much to me- thanks for the good luck u wished me b4 my exam (so glad u remembered!). i'm sure your luck played a part in my exam paper! muack! come back soon!=p

*i just did a collation of the pictures taken over the year, posted on the 2nd option and am very much happy bout the result. hehe. thanks to trix for the webbie. *smiles*

-the parting-

2006-01-03T11:21:00.000+08:00

Heart feeling pretty heavy right now. just sent my boy off at the airport a few hours ago. =(

after my boy had a full sleep, he came over, and we headed to Marina Square for our lunch =p nothin seem to interest me at tt moment, cos feelings overtook my mind. i noe de nite was coming and my boy wld be leaving.

we took a slow walk to Pan Pacific Hotel, reminscing the day of our graduation nite held there. =)

some pictures we took:

trying hard to be happy..

rain started pouring. dear said "even god is sad that im leaving" :/ i dunno to smile or to cry. which to do? cos i myself was crying. =(

we drove to PS for short while. tinkin of finding CNY clothes, but both of us end up buying nothing. lol~

afterwhich, left to Suntec for a show - Family Stone. great show! simply love the whole story. =) dear, we'll watch more shows wen u come back alrite? *hugs*

silly me. had a sudden urge to did this. lol. my boy got this for me:

bah. simply love it to bits. its the colour i wan, and it perfectly matches my bag! hehe. *muack* i feel like a kid once again. *grin*

my boy said sth tt made me so happy, and i smiled and he "click". gosh~ close up somemore. geez. i like it tho. -i smiled from my heart-

left towards the airport ard 9+. waited for his parents to come b4 we headed to the departure area.

a pic we took at @ Mac b4 leaving:

my boy and his parents:

this pic is wif the extra me:

we'll stay thru thick and thin, holding hands even till we grow old.. *promise*

it was a tough parting. the hugs n kisses didnt do good. it jus made me cried more. =( the wait was long. the more we waited, the more my tears flowed. even his frens were teasing, saying its only a short journey, "like watching King Kong 3 hours only mah". =p

i got home ard 2. tryin to get to sleep, yet it was so tuff. my boy called me @ 6.46. glad he's there safely. thanks for calling my dear.

i woke up seeing tis email from him:

its short but it touched my heart. dun worry baby. i'll do wad i promise u. i wun be crying, and will study hard for my exams. =)

i just wanna say thank u for always being there for me. always coming down at all cost just to make sure im alrite. thank u for loving me so much.. i'll be there for u too =) this blog was created for us. the design and song totally signifies our love. im no IT expert, nevertheless hope u liked this bloggie. our first baby born in 2006 :) will see u very soon. love u, dearest. *hugs*

Happy 2006!

2006-01-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year To All!!

Hehe. Created a new bloggie for the new year. Hope i dun change too soon again. lol =p

Have a good start for 2006, hope all things will go smoothly for all of ya =) *smiles*

heh. and so, the finale of 2005 was celebrated @ Esplanade's Countdown Event. met my boy noon time for a slight shopping, which i tink i din buy back anythg. lol. it was fun tho, walking down the streets of Orchard Rd, just admiring all the beautiful lightings, wif someone u love holding ya hands. =)

headed to Suntec thereafter to meet Chan & gang. took a slow walk to Esplanade, squeezing thru the horrible crowd. gosh~ the countless number of ppl made de whole envt so hot n sticky. *faint* we werent there very early, so sits were all fully taken. we stood at one 'spacious' corner, waiting for the fire works. =) hehe.

heh. fireworks was beautiful! "thats where all our taxes have gone to" - Chan. muahah... how true! lol~ but people still like to see fireworks hur? =p

different colours. different effects. different designs. simply beautiful :) thx to the guy hu helped us take some pictures, cos we were badly blocked, lol. *thank u*

-HAPPY NEW YEAR!- there i was, celebrating the arrival of 2006! hehe.

human traffic was bad. we waited for awhile before slowly heading to Suntec where we parked. Chan & gang headed to Chevorns after tt for singing! wahaha~ power. my boy was half dead aldy =( lol. had a hard time driving out. :/ got home ard 2 and off i wen to bed after studying for awhile. *zzZzZ*

1st of Jan, woke up feelin as if my whole body aches. =( at tt moment, felt like sleepin a bit more, lol! had to wake up tho. together wif my boy & his parents, we headed to Sakura @ Omni Theatre for a sumptuous buffet! heh. i've nvr been there before. lol.. *suaku* the place was so crowded, lucky we made a reservation =) its really good biz, considering the location. hmm. :) i tink de food is really yummy, esp de prawns! hehe :p and also, the durian puff! *thumbs up*

dear wasnt feelin a tad well, so we wen back after de full-full lunch. *bloated* studied a bit, before i really cmi and zzZZZ too. :p we only woke up at 6. *faint* lol. i tink i can be certified a pig soon. muahaha~

dinner was @ Boon Tong Kee. suddenly miss the calamari from there, but, the Katong outlet doesnt hav it! sob~ nvm, next time! =) we drove to Parkway after dinner. thx dear for tt lovely top! hehe. =p took a bit of fotos b4 we headed home sweet home. *dead beat*

had a really enjoyable time. love u, hunney =)

Some pictures to conclude:

all this were taken on 30/12 @ JS's place. a get-together for the PIGS! really glad to see of dem again =) see u all next wk @ Lihe's 21st Birthday Party! *smiles*

At the Esplanade Walk on 31/12:

On the 1/1 @ Parkway: